Saturday, March 21, 2026

To Imane, pt 46

Look, if I can say that US President Barack Obama should have dropped whatever he was doing in 2011 and shared this idea, I can say that you should too.

I'm sure that the three letters I mailed to the US White House, and the messages I might have sent on the online contact form, never reached anyone important. I'm uncertain if Obama might have learned of it later, as a result of me contacting US Vice President Joe Biden's economic advisor and the Federal Bureau of Investigation etc., but Obama has acted happy since leaving office and that makes me think he's stupid, and the fact that he's acting in a way that makes me think he's stupid is evidence that he doesn't know of this idea.

I'll think you're stupid too if you don't share it. You're streaming with GIRLSET, whom I don't think I've ever heard of and who have only 33k followers on Chirp Club, and I'm sure they'll benefit from the exposure.

But they would also benefit if you just gave them a million USD.

Friday, March 20, 2026

Silent Fang

Near the end of his first video about classic WoW, Gbay99 said,

It's possible that some features might drive me away eventually. I have heard that best-in-slot items exist in this game, which is kind of sad.

Funny because it shows a group of people being wrong, and it isn't too important.

It seemed that Xaryu and his chat did not understand why this would be sad, and skipped over it to focus on the subsequent criticism of vertical progression.

Gbay99 used to play League of Legends. I haven't played it, but I know (or at least I think I know, without bothering to confirm with a search) that there are no 'best-in-slot' items. There are items which are especially good for one character, but there are always alternatives, and the build path to reach an item is also important.

So in a sense, the fact that WoW does have 'best-in-slot' items is not bad, or sad, because player choice can potentially come from other aspects of character customization. If an item doesn't change how a character plays, and the path to reach it is unimportant, then one item will be at least slightly better than any other item. But people focusing on acquiring 'best-in-slot' items is a little bit sad, and yet not so sad that it's important that many players don't realize it's sad.

(When I played WoW, I used Silent Fang as a mage, which provided zero benefit while casting spells. Definitely not best in slot.)


Someone in Lebanon who wanted to play Classic WoW might have difficulty doing so due to the fighting with Israel.

1. Sun Tzu said: The art of war is of vital importance to the State.

2. It is a matter of life and death, a road either to safety or to ruin. Hence it is a subject of inquiry which can on no account be neglected.

I said that if Sherine didn't do something, which was probably to share the idea, then it meant she didn't care about Lebanon. But she had said that one of the one or two things she cared about was the country she was from. Which of the following was true?

1) Sherine lied

2) I lied

3) I was wrong, without intending to lie

4) Sherine is not from Lebanon

My general intention is to convince people that I don't lie, and that I'm not wrong. But I said that if Greta posted Stories on Instagram, it meant Imane didn't like me, then said that I had lied or was wrong.

I felt like it was possible that the outcome of Greta posting Stories was my 'fault'. I did not feel like the outcome that led to the conclusion that Sherine doesn't care about Lebanon was my 'fault'.

Emotionally, I don't really care if people suggest or think that I was wrong or lied about Sherine not caring about Lebanon. It just makes logical sense for me to act like what I said was true, until people use this idea, at which point it won't matter if I make mistakes.

I would say that I care about the country where half of my ancestors came from, as well as the country that 1/8 of my ancestors came from (I don't know the remaining 3/8). I don't know if I can say that I care a lot, like I almost never think about those countries, but I do care. Just as I would say that I care about every other country, including Lebanon. It's a little sad if someone says they don't care about other countries, or their own country, whatever it might be.

Wednesday, March 18, 2026

To ???, pt 3

If people used this idea, people with high incomes would work less, which means smart people would work less. People might say, "there's always more you can do to help other people". This is me not helping other people. I'm not looking up the progress of the war between Israel and Iran, or whether any of Iran's conventional submarines have been destroyed.

Two observations from the video that I finally finished: the scene with boats moving through canals. It wasn't clear if the player was steering the boats, but it would be nice if they were. Second, someone commented on the original video,

"I'm a noob too" he answers to his group mate - by writing in General Chat, thus proving he is indeed a noob too @50:28

I'm sure there are people who have had this experience: playing for a long time without knowing how to properly communicate with other people. When I first played WoW, I didn't know how to move — I was expecting it to be like Warcraft III, in which you first selected a unit and then right-clicked a location to move to, even in a custom scenario where you could only control one unit — and I didn't know how to reply to Mei after she messaged me, so I was just jumping up and down in place using space bar until she told me how to reply. If not for her, who knows how long I might have played the game before I learned that?

(Actually, I wonder what percent of people whom I messaged for dungeons might not have replied because they didn't know how to)

Communication is very important for people to find the answers to problems that they have. In school, classrooms where students never ask questions probably have worse learning than other classrooms. (It's unlikely that all students fully understand the material.) If someone doesn't know how to communicate in a multiplayer game, or doesn't feel confident enough to ask questions, they might run into a bunch of problems which the game's designers didn't anticipate.

Then I watched a video about players avoiding flying. I wouldn't have said anything about it, but halfway through another video about quests in WoW, at 15:54, I got the vp9 dropped segment bug.

It would have been nice if I didn't make this post and the previous, because the one before that made a good point: that limitations on a character make them more interesting. Like with the point I made in a forum post that I won't link about AoE2, that a challenge for games that undergo continuous development is to help new players without harming long-time players. A lot of the issues discussed in the first video were the result of catering to long-time players, like with getting a mount at lvl 10 and a flying mount at lvl 20, or just the fact of the game not being challenging.

These videos I'm watching have all been 'react' videos by one streamer, so I want to mention a gameplay video, The Last Player on a Dead Server – And Why I Bought Him a PC, with 5m views.

So now I have two reasons to link my 2010 post about WoW. I occasionally think about the post I did in 2008, which I think is in one of the jpg-zip archives but maybe not even on a post that's still visible. Just the bit where I briefly said how the solution to the hardcore vs casual player tension was to keep differences between players but make it so those differences didn't matter, and that "you must study this", which was a reference to the Book of Five Rings. I did not expect anyone who read it to understand (I expected it to fail just like my earlier writings had failed). I think of the translator's note in that translation, "Who can understand Musashi's methods?"

Anyway, the first paragraph, that ended with,

the hopes and dreams of people provide a guiding force, which is not always apparent in the direction it will take the game.

The creator of the video about flying mentioned the 'trenches of 2014'. The great debates on the forums, second possibly only to the debates at some other point about whether the forums should switch to using real player names, about whether flying was good or bad for the game. The people who supported flying might not have been a clear majority, but they were numerous enough to change Blizzard's plans, showing that at least in the World of Warcraft, the future does, indeed, lie in the hands of the people.

And now, many years later, people who kept playing after the 'pro-flying' side got what they wanted are talking about how the game might be more fun if one avoids flying.

And the end of the post, where under "Other PvP issues" I suggested increasingly outlandish fixes to flying.

It never seemed realistic to remove flying, once it had been added. It made the game worse, but major content areas would literally become inaccessible if flying was removed, and there was just too much dissonance from trying to restrict flying in new areas, when it was still available in old areas (especially after Cataclysm, which added flying to the original world). No story justification, and from what players could see, no gameplay justification. Maybe if they had fixed world PvP, people would have seen benefits from keeping flying banned, but unsurprisingly, since they didn't implement my suggestions about PvP, world PvP was never fixed.

So all that could be done was make flying less convenient. I didn't mention Aion, but it is one of the links on my weblog, and the suggestion to use a flight timer was pulled directly from Aion. Aion's flight did have problems, which was basically that run speed boosts made gliding in non-flight zones useless in PvP, and flight potions that restored flight time eventually made the flight timer irrelevant. I might have also had suggestions about improving combat in flight zones, where the cool inertial aspect of gliding played no role. Aion had or has a system where traveling forward for a few seconds gives a 10% damage boost. Maybe my suggestion was to allow spellcasting while gliding?

WoW didn't make flying less convenient. It added inertia to flying, but also made flying extremely fast, so players are even more penalized in terms of time if they don't use it, with no gameplay penalty if they do choose to use it.

People in comments suggest an 'Iron Man'-type buff if one chooses not to fly, and that's kind of interesting to think about: if one could choose at character creation to make a 'heroic' character who would eventually have access to flying mounts, or a 'non-heroic' character who could not use flying mounts, how many would choose the latter?

If time spent walking on a low-level character has the opportunity cost of riding on a high-level character at a later (or even just different, if someone with a high-level main levels an alt) time, then the efficiency of economic activity is a concern, as I've probably said before. New players might enjoy walking, but if gathering iron ore on a max-level character with a flying mount is 5x faster than a low-level character who walks, then an experienced player will not enjoy the portion of leveling where they have no mount.

So mount speed is a problem, even without flying. When I leveled in TBC zones on the public test realm, the first thing I did was run through all of Outland at lvl 60, and with a +100% speed epic mount nothing really felt dangerous. There was a large aggro range, but nothing except a lvl 70 mob would have displayed as 'skull' level, which is the traditional indication of a zone being too high-level for a player in Classic WoW. And so while watching this video about flying, I had a few thoughts about how when everyone has a +100% speed mount, it shouldn't make the world feel so much less dangerous. The daze mechanic does knock a player off a mount, but that's only for melee attacks, and if every mob has to be fast enough to catch a player on a +100% mount, it makes normal combat less interesting. For example, a 50% snare like Hamstring would not make a mob slower than a player, so it would not have utility in allowing a player to gain distance from a mob.

It's basically a neglected problem because in the same expansion where everyone was able to afford an epic ground mount, they were also able to afford flying mounts which made avoiding mobs trivial.

(This was supposed to be a link to the 2010 post and maybe one or two sentences.)

So: the title for the third video is, "The Design Idea That Made WoW Massive", referring to quests. But now people don't read or care about the quests in retail WoW. Should new MMOs bother to make enough quests for players to level with?

I already knew the story of how Blizzard was surprised at how popular quests were in the early testing. I used it as an example of how Blizzard did not plan the things that made WoW popular, and people (or specifically Wolfshead Online) should not expect that Blizzard would be able to create a 'WoW killer' with Project Titan (back when it was just job openings and rumors). I didn't know that a lack of quests might have been one of the reasons for the failure of Ashes of Creation, since I still haven't watched any videos or read anything about its failure.

In the minute before I got the vp9 bug (and if the bug is from deliberate interference, segments are pre-loaded so any content-related decision to cause it would be delayed before I knew of it), the streamer is talking about the ability for people to WoW solo. Maybe a little ironic, when he played Runescape, which came before WoW, and the first video talked about the ability to experience all of the story in Runescape solo, unlike WoW. But at least players can reach the level cap solo in WoW. So: the faction split, solo leveling, and quests were all important features that led to WoW's success. PvP was probably also important, but that might fall under the faction split. But I assume that quests are what the video title refers to.

Almost every major raiding guild in original WoW was on a PvP server. Well: better without Javascript:

https://wowpedia.fandom.com/wiki/Gates_of_Ahn'Qiraj

https://wowpedia.fandom.com/wiki/Server:Medivh_US

PvE server. But,

In an effort to gain an advantage for their home server, players from Medivh and Mannoroth created alts on the opposing server to increase lag and queue times. Players also trolled the realm forums of the opposing server, trading insults like "carebear" and "Mannorofl".

Though Medivh emerged victorious, some Mannoroth players still claim they were the first "legitimate" server to complete the event, as Medivh's PvE mechanics prevented cross-faction interference and made organization between Horde and Alliance a natural course of action. By contrast, Mannoroth's war effort was hindered throughout the event by fierce competition between Horde and Alliance Scepter quest raids. Ganking in Silithus ignited a no-holds-barred war between the factions, causing constant server crashes due to zone overpopulation and ending in a battle at the Scarab Gong.

I was going with the argument, 'players who wanted to do hard achievements in PvE preferred to be on PvP servers.' An editor here made a good point that achieving anything on PvP servers was more difficult, including doing things related to raid progression or even getting inside a raid instance.

In Gegon's The Last Ovski, the players he attacks at 12:47 are gathered together to try to get the Songflower Serenade buff, quite possibly in preparation for a raid. Players on a PvE server could get the buff safely. So the achievements of guilds on PvE servers like Medivh might oversell their competence, compared to guilds on PvP servers.

And if more competent players did prefer PvP servers, it not only suggests that world PvP was an important part of WoW's overall success, but also that there is something about the interactions or dependencies that world PvP led to that competent players found appealing. To put it another way, players who were bad at PvP because they were bad at the game would not want to be on a server where they could be killed by other players.

I think that this is a bad post, but if it says anything useful, it might be a brief explanation of why the 9GAG post I did was titled, "War is Obsolete". Chess does not lead to any physical thrill. Perhaps physical sports do, but like, one thing I was thinking about regarding retail WoW is that for activities to be interesting, they not only have to be inherently relevant, they also have to convince enough people that they're relevant to be popular. What one lvl 10 character does in retail WoW is just as relevant to another lvl 10 character in retail, as a lvl 10 character in Classic is to another lvl 10 character in Classic. In fact, outside of hardcore, interest in leveling in Classic is low, so I'll just stick with hardcore. More people care about the lvl 10 hardcore character because players whose characters are lvl 10 are a larger percentage of the population.

So, almost everyone can safely do physical sports and benefit from a little bit of exercise. But interest is concentrated in professional athletes, aside from parents watching their children. And most people can't be professional athletes.

Whereas most people could be soldiers; it's why the US military sometimes describes people as "military-aged males", because anyone of a certain age is viewed as having the ability to participate in combat.

As I was saying, chess does not replace war, though in Chinese and Korean costume dramas the ability to play chess is often seen as a critical skill for a military commander. Normal work is often also not challenging, when people are forced to stay at work even when there is nothing to do. But computer games, and the option of working more efficiently and leaving work earlier (while getting paid slightly less), could replace war for competitively-minded people, who seek to challenge themselves.

Tuesday, March 17, 2026

To ???, pt 2

I have watched up to around 46:00 in the video I linked in the previous post, before I stopped again.

I thought about various things. Quests as puzzles, and how this is invalidated by the 'arrow' of the questing addon that is popular in Classic (other than with like the rogue quest with the parrot where not reading the quest text gets you killed). My suggestion to make only a subset of quests available to any particular player would not fix this; a guide could not tell the order in which to do quests, but it could give the answer to any 'puzzle' in a particular quest.

Mei talking about how she had done almost everything it was possible to do in World of Warcraft, in the context of her switching servers to play with a more casual guild (Death and Taxes) and like maybe trying to dissuade me from trying to follow her. The question of whether, at that point in time, she would have liked WoW to be a game that had more stuff for her to do, or if she was fine the way it was, considering it was affecting her school grades.

The MMO that Ghostcrawler is apparently working on; a lot of the things I've said should apply to any MMO, and it might be better if I tried to help that project than a Classic Plus version of WoW.

The way that I stopped at this point in the video because fundamentally, I saw a problem and looked for a solution or how to describe the solution, when I am really just trying to fill time and act in a boring way until someone shares the idea. When I quit WoW, i.e. cancelled my subscription that I might have (not sure) been paying for continuously since the game launched, despite not logging in to the game or even having a computer for over a year, it was in large part so I would not spend more of my life on something that was going to decline in quality, to the point that I could not recommend people play it. So that, at this moment in time 19 years later, I would not devote a lot of this post to talking about WoW.

The way that I probably spent a lot less time than Mei playing WoW (I might have played more at first, since after a short break around the time I met her she was supposed to start college soon), and took an opportunity to make her think that I might have quit playing a few months after WoW launched (partly so she wouldn't feel she would have to keep playing it), but she graduated from college despite the time she spent playing WoW while I did not.

The broader questions; beyond 'how to make WoW better', and 'whether it's good if WoW is better than other games if it only increases the parent company's profits', and 'what are the consequences if games are more enjoyable to play'.


The thing with 'the attitude of Jewish people is that it's better to be seen as smart, than to be seen as moral, while Muslim people would say the opposite'. So, if Israel's leaders know of this idea, and the war with Iran is related, then it was the attitude: 'being seen as dumb is undesirable'.

If this site is important, I didn't want to label Islam as dumb. I have tried to act in a way that extends the 'now' in my post. I have not done web searches for my current weight or my diet, because that was something I was trying to do every day. I have not had any multivitamin tablets since then, as it was something I was trying to do every 2~4 days, and to take one would be acknowledging the passing of time.

I am supposed to say something at this point that exploits the desire not to be seen as immoral, as contrasted with the desire not to be seen as dumb.

To ???, pt 1

Ellie, who commented on this site a year ago, said something on Chirp Club about the imperial exams.

She is much smarter than an average person. If she would think that Imane doesn't read this, then the average person would think that, as average people tend to dismiss possibilities that no one else expresses belief in that seem statistically unlikely, based on whether similar possibilities are true. No one else has indicated that they have read this site since the mysterious 'B' commented in 2017.

Just as I think the best way to learn a language (after learning its grammar) is to basically memorize movies, because the stories in them are inherently more interesting than, say, news articles and broadcasts in the target language, I find it more interesting to reference fiction on the topic of imperial exams.

But I will say that I think the second-to-last emperor of China, who was like killed by his mother-in-law or something around 1908, was trying to reform the imperial exams. Her resistance to reforms were linked to the Boxer Rebellion, ultimately leading to the end of imperial rule, and this is an example of the like energy accumulation in a system, the bullet vs sunlight thing again. People tried to protect a system that was flawed, leading to violent change.

The Legend of Anle begins with a case of cheating on the imperial exams.

The Double also touches on the topic of the exams. The idea of having males and females combine into teams for the exams is introduced, criticized by certain characters, and then indulged for the purpose of making an interesting story (like with the archery test).

I think that in The Prisoner of Beauty, the grandfather might mention the importance of the exams and selecting good officials in his final message to his granddaughter, but I did not watch the later episodes in which the importance of whatever he said might be revealed.

Ellie mentioned being a National Merit Scholar in the US. I never tried for any exclusive scholarships. I was disappointed that the US did not, in fact, have much of a merit-based system that did not depend on zero-sum competitions. For example, I went to high school in California, and for like one or two years there was a way of getting scholarship money through tests, then the funding for that was cut.

So, the imperial exams: objective being to get the best people possible for important positions. If being, say, in the top 0.573% is highly rewarded, but being in the top 0.574% has a low reward, then people will want to cheat. But, beyond that: if people's competence is measured, what should be done with the people who are measured to be the very worst? What jobs should they have? (Is it important to be able to say it was worth their time to do all that preparation, even if they were measured as the worst?)

China no longer executes people who cheat on the exams. But the issue of the exams covering irrelevant material still exists. Ideally, all exams (not just the ones used for college entrance in China) should be for knowledge which is useful to know, even if it were not being tested for. This is a very general statement which might seem useless in isolation; I am just rolling it all up in signal accuracy. If an exam tests useless knowledge, then people should not care what result someone gets on the exam, but they often do. So, like, the question about the sheep and goats on a boat ([8.8M views, 13 Oct 2025][ship captain's age China problem]The REAL Answer Explained - YouTube), and the official explanation for why the problem was on an exam.


The following has nothing to do with the idea. It just shows how I am restricting my potential to cause change with less important problems, as evidence that I care about this idea and the problems it would fix.

I did a test. I watched an AoE2 video, but I tried to avoid touching any keys while doing so. I got the 'vp9 dropped segments' bug twice shortly after it started, and then twice again after I had to touch a key to stop the screen from blanking from inactivity after an ad.

This behavior was consistent with someone deliberately and intentionally causing this bug by disrupting traffic from the server: if someone was trying to communicate that "they were deliberately causing the bug", this communication would lead to ambiguity and an increase in complexity if it occurred while I was not watching the screen. But I still don't know if it might just be a browser bug with like muxing the segments (combining audio and video), and the server is sending the data just fine.

While I was watching the video, So, I tried Retail WoW (as a new player...) | Xaryu Reacts, the bug happened again. This is my excuse to mention the video and treat the fact that I was watching it as important.

At 34:08, someone says in the stream chat,

Classic andies: this is the whole point of wow. Why would you wanna boost [past] this

I watched up to around this point. This video is probably one of the most favourable presentations of  'retail' WoW: it shows a storyline that the player had a reason to be interested in, and did not demonstrate the incoherence that can result from the mashup of storylines from different expansions, or basically from players missing the stories from most expansions when they level a single time to the level cap.

I think the difficulty tuning is bad. I think that it looks like the story being told might not be possible to experience while playing with someone else, which is bad, but people might not realize it's bad if they don't think about how MMOs are not supposed to be single-player games.

I also think, just like the creator, Gbay, who made the original video, that the story being told is not very good. I had always felt that books are a better medium for telling interesting stories than games; decline of literacy increases the audience for stories told in games, and people suggest that other games do stories better than WoW. But the opposition (Q41) that Classic WoW players have to boosting is not because the stories told within the game are good.

When a newly created gnome character is asked to slaughter eight ragged young wolves for their edible flesh (found via other database site), it's not intended to be a riveting story. The result is predictable. No one will care what the player did, other than the single non-player character (NPC) who benefits from the exchange. The player themselves won't care or remember that they did this particular quest.

It's more about building a world. A world where other characters in the game, whether player characters or NPCs, care about the existence of the player's own character, at least if the player bothers to read the quests that they're doing. Only a few quests in Classic have stories that a typical player cares much about; with Alliance players, it's the Defias questline, with a lot more quests that players won't remember or care about.

Based on this video, retail WoW apparently has stories in which the player's character matters to NPCs, reaching a pinnacle probably with the expansion in which players had artifact weapons (an item quality above legendary, which is above epic), but these stories were fundamentally incompatible with the fact of other players existing within the game, who had the same role in the story.

So the commenter who implied that the experience of playing through the game's story was why Classic players opposed boosting missed an important fact: the video creator did not interact with any other players while doing this in retail WoW.

If Classic WoW was a game where every player was solitary in their own personal shard until they hit the level cap (or solitary outside of dungeons), a lot more players would support a paid boost, if they didn't just quit.

Other players existing in the world is sometimes good, sometimes bad, and sometimes can seem irrelevant. Game streamers often play a game in a way where they interact more with their stream chat. In MMOs, they will often talk about other players within the game world, commenting on or asking questions about that player, without making any attempt to answer their questions by interacting with that player. Even for normal players, if they have a goal like 'leveling as fast as possible', then other players in the game are often nothing but a hindrance to this goal, like with competition for limited-drop items (language warning).


This post honestly took a turn I wasn't expecting. I didn't really think about the creator of the video not interacting with other players, maybe because so much of my own playtime in original WoW was by myself or in lightly populated areas. Like, when the game launched, I played in areas with other people. I still remember PvP involving multiple players of both factions near the shore of Desolace, in late 2004 or early 2005, where I encountered a shaman on my priest and had the experience of all my survival tools being countered by Purge and Earth Shock. There were raids on Astranaar by low-level Horde, and raids on Crossroads by low-level Alliance, with most participating players being unable to damage guards.

But later on, with my first character that reached lvl 60 in late 2006, a lot of areas I leveled through were relatively unpopulated. Players who were creating new characters preferred to play on new servers, which were periodically released, and many people who had been playing since the launch of my server were already at the level cap. When I leveled on the public test realm in TBC so that I could say that my character on live realms never traveled through the Dark Portal (and never even logged in after TBC launched), it was also in empty zones, other than the odd (rare) occasion like when I fought a lvl 70 blood elf paladin with a flying mount for control of the PvP objective in the first zone.


I linked the Russian comment listed below on 10 Mar. Other videos I didn't mention in that post:

Retail WoW vs Classic WoW comments https://www.youtube.com/shorts/e2WO6u8AUkg
Russian comment https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BdZ0D-L6yBI&lc=Ugz4YTc8W08feFI4Fld4AaABAg
updated models https://www.youtube.com/shorts/kHvb6pNkKhg
WoW Classic vs Retail: Quests (leveling speed) https://www.youtube.com/shorts/lO8iOxW4xng
retail WoW ad, giant mob dying to 'new and returning player' c9B1DlgIZ74

WoW: https://www.twitch.tv/pikabooirl/clip/PreciousPhilanthropicBaguettePJSalt-QtLvqbRHsCqc2PjV and https://youtu.be/M0DbD9TXAPg?t=1022
Classic has challenge that is more relevant.


Within the rules of a game, a long-time player will always be able to do more. From which follows, "it's better to be max level than to still be questing and leveling". I didn't view this to be true; I deleted my first character at lvl 50, partly in order to delay when I reached lvl 60 (possibly because then I might stop playing, and Mei had wanted me to be playing the same game as her). But every player who buys a boost thinks this.

It does not follow that a game is better if every player can quickly reach max level. A max-level character can do more, but what they can do is not necessarily relevant. It often is not relevant to new characters, and it is often not relevant to the much larger population of "real-life humans", who can hear about the game or the exploits of its characters (including fictional characters who don't actually exist in the game, like with comics or The Craft of War : BLIND by Percula) and make judgements as a result of their knowledge.

Low-level characters are able to do less within the game world. But it's the fact that they are restricted in what they can do that makes them interesting.

Monday, March 16, 2026

The mountain

Most people want to be seen as attractive, at least to someone. That someone does not necessarily even exist; it might be, "the version of you who is smart enough to understand what I'm doing and why". It might be, "someone who will know what I did, which is no one".

I could unpublish the last two posts. I had already thought I might unpublish the one titled 'Sand'. Really the title was about waves erasing things drawn in the sand, though it also became an allusion to the sorites paradox, because it uses sand (honestly until I just looked it up, I assumed sorites meant sand). I think I look bad, and unattractive, whether I leave them up or hide them.

I might have acted differently if I had fallen asleep two hours ago. But I remained awake, and I wanted to give an explanation for my actions, which might be unimportant, but if important may seem unusual.

I just thought of an event with my national guard unit, in mid-2008, before leaving to go to Iraq. I'm not even completely sure this event occurred, which is part of the reason it put me in a bad mood to think of it. It was at a place, maybe not a park, but an outdoors place away from the city. Since I have never had a car (I was the only member of my unit who took a bus to reach the training armory each month), someone else had to pick me up to drive me there, probably the NCO in charge of my section.

It was more for people with families to socialize. There was a sort of hill or tiny mountain next to where the people were, and I spent a lot of the event walking on the trails of the mountain, surrounded by trees. I had thoughts which I no longer remember, but I think some of those thoughts might have been about how no one else would know the thoughts I was having at that time. If I had that thought, then because I have forgotten what kinds of thoughts I had, that thought would have been true.

It just shows the passing of time.

Sort of like with me never having had the opportunity to watch fireworks with anyone, only by myself, and then forgetting the experience.

I think there was a sort of canal and path for walking and biking, next to the event area. If looking from the event area towards the canal, the mountain was to the left.

Maybe I didn't have cell phone coverage, and I thought, "what if Mei tried to call me then?" Even though she had never called me before.

Sunday, March 15, 2026

To Imane, pt 45

Greta did post two Stories but I am disregarding that fact.

I said to Sherine that she should share the idea unless she wanted me to die. If this was a valid reason for her not to share the idea, then it's a valid reason for anyone else not to share the idea.

My efforts to get people to share this idea have been complicated by my name. I mentioned in my very long post to Yoko Ono that I had emailed, and received responses from Richard Stallman (also, I noticed that he is also one of the authors of the 'ls' command on my system, as seen with 'man ls'). Notably, this happened on the email account associated with this site, which has the name listed on my profile's About page, rather than on the email account I used to contact you.

A lot of the emails I have sent have been the address I used to contact you, or from my main email account back when the name was still listed as Misaki. I don't want to imply to any male person that I am a female who might potentially be interested in him, and this affects what I say to any males; it probably leads to a bit more of a confrontational tone. I probably avoid implying that I actively want any male to share, or even to respond to me, and a lot of people base their actions off of what people they interact with want.

The justification for this would be if, as suggested by the topic of the poll I recommended you create, females are indeed treated better in society, and this idea would remove that bias. Then it would be better if a female was responsible for sharing this idea, as it avoids implying that there was conflict.

However, people might take issue with an explanation gives me a reason to interact with female people and avoid interacting with male people.

Saturday, March 14, 2026

Sand

You know my intention is to do nothing and say nothing.

I had a thought, maybe you feel guilty.

The video mentions the number 20k, which I assume is the number of young people killed in the recent fighting. Of course, young people were also killed in the last round of fighting in 2014, and I thought of the 2009 war, and that made me think of something else.

This was in the 'memories from the war' email that I sent to Hime.

It's basic: a civilian car, with an Iraqi family, hit a pressure-plate IED and was blown up. It was on a road on the western outskirts of Baghdad. I think it was marked as a minor, relatively unused route on US military maps. The people I will call "fighters" would try to put IEDs on roads that would be used by the US military. For example, I think it was roughly this location, on a road joining the main highway, that a civilian vehicle being used by private military contractors to escort diplomats or something hit a pressure-plate IED in the dust of the road, killing several or all occupants, around the first half of 2009. It was a road used by military convoys that were detouring around Fallujah, and so the PMCs must have chosen the route for the same reason. Normal Iraqis would have no reason to avoid Fallujah. (In the convoy briefings I gave that mentioned this incident, I contrasted the destroyed civilian vehicle with the tire damage that a military vehicle sustained from a similar IED in the same location.)

So this family was presumably on a road that didn't get a lot of traffic, so some fighters must have thought it was a good place to target US military vehicles. Again, I think it was labeled as a minor supply route for the US military. But instead the IED killed an Iraqi family.

I just remember the shoe. I think there was a photo of it, taken at night, in the incident report uploaded by the unit that investigated the scene. A young person's shoe had been blown off their foot by the explosion, ending up away from the rest of the scene.

With the young Palestinian female whose image has been used as a symbol of the victims of war, some people might say that Israel intended to kill her, or at least didn't care if she died. That wasn't the case for this young person who died when their family's car hit an IED in Iraq. Neither the US, nor the fighters who planted the IED, wanted civilians to die. (This is in contrast to events like a suicide bomb attack on a recruitment center near the so-called triangle of death that killed 50+ people; it was different people planting pressure-plate IEDs like this one.)

Friday, March 13, 2026

To Imane, pt 44

A funny thing happened today. I was watching a bunch of videos when my Internet stopped working. The wireless router was blinking red. I went to make cookies, and the router's light was still red whenever I checked it, but around the time I was done, this happened:

misaki@dawn:/dev/shm$  !pi
 ping google.com
ping: google.com: Name or service not known
misaki@dawn:/dev/shm$   !pi
  ping google.com
^C
misaki@dawn:/dev/shm$  !Pi
bash: !Pi: event not found
misaki@dawn:/dev/shm$  !pi
 ping google.com
^C
misaki@dawn:/dev/shm$  tracepath google.com
 1?: [LOCALHOST]                      pmtu 1500
 1:  _gateway                                              2.077ms
 1:  _gateway                                              1.595ms
 2:  ^C
misaki@dawn:/dev/shm$  tracepath 1.1.1.1
 1?: [LOCALHOST]                      pmtu 1500
 1:  _gateway                                              3.168ms
 1:  _gateway                                             99.120ms
 2:  <redacted>                                         3.230ms
 3:  10.4.20.1                                             3.614ms
 4:  no reply
 5:  100ge0-35.core1.las1.he.net                          14.382ms
 6:  206.71.8.11                                          15.338ms asymm  7
 7:  no reply
 8:  no reply
^C
It started working again. But I had neglected to check the router's light before doing this. I don't know if it started working immediately after I tried to ping google.com, or if it was already working at that point and just being slow for some reason.

This is like when Sherine sent me an angry message on Chirp Club, but her account was protected, so I didn't see the message until someone reminded her and she unprotected her account. Trying to communicate with someone by making their Internet stop working would be an unreliable form of communication, as it could be a random event from an unrelated cause.

In movies, people almost never have to repeat what they said because someone did not hear, or did not understand someone's meaning, even when the actual audience needs subtitles due to low voice volume or poor (aka natural, or non-trained) enunciation. In real life, it's natural to have communication problems.

Greta said that we need to talk about Cuba.

The first oil tanker that was seized was using a false flag. (via 2026 Cuban crisis, [...]#Summary of seizures of oil tankers) It seems that others were not: they were just "sanctioned". The US will probably release them, since other countries can act like the US isn't doing anything wrong as long as this happens, but in the meantime the vessels are not working, the crew still has to be paid, etc. and if it means taking on Venezuelan crude oil is 20% less profitable than other jobs, it could lead to a 100% reduction of exports from Venezuela to Cuba.

Similarly to the US threatening Mexico with tariffs if it helps Cuba: decrease the profitability of the route and it can be shut down completely.

So this is definitely bullying. I don't really care. This is like the bullet vs sunlight energy analogy: Cuba having to use less oil now is like every other country, in probably less than 100 years. ("estimates suggest that at current consumption rates, conventional oil reserves could last between 27 and 50 years": AI summarizing HowStuffWorks) I would ask what the streets of Cuba look like, whether they are filled with vehicles, but it doesn't really matter: the streets of the US are filled with vehicles. Cities like Los Angeles have a reputation for bad traffic, which by definition is a lot of vehicles. When it's freeways, a lot of it is people driving to work: habitual use of a lot of fuel.

I wrote a thing about this to Giggly aka Madison, like how if no one else has a car then having a car lets you do special things, but if everyone has one, then everything is basically as it was before cars, except that instead of walking for X minutes, you have to drive for X minutes which uses extra energy.

Northern Korea is probably the leader in "getting used to not having fossil fuels", since they actually turn off city lights at night (or maybe just don't have streetlights), something that probably no other country does.

A hashtag or description I've noticed on Douyin: "an old song but danced in a new way". Why can't people do old dances? (An exception, but it's part of a live full performance and most short-form dances don't have a long version.) Because people see that change is necessary. Purposeful changes to improve society, as with China's rise in purchasing power parity GDP per capita from $1k in 1990 to $27k in 2024 (compared to the world, which I clicked on by accident, rising from $5.6k to $26k in the same timeframe), and changes in adaption to influences like global warming, resource depletion, war, or a large decline in literacy due to technology, which people do not wish for but if ignored can be disastrous.

A reporter once asked someone if he created Bitcoin. His reply was that "I am no longer involved in that and I cannot discuss it. It's been turned over to other people," though he later claimed this was a misunderstanding. "It" is Bitcoin being estimated to use 204 TWh per year in 2026 or 23 GW, or the mechanical power output of 122 Nimitz-class aircraft carriers, or enough power to vaporize a cubic km of 10°C water in just 1228 days or raise a Nimitz-class aircraft carrier in 1 Earth gravity at a rate of 24 m/s, about equal to the rate of climb of the most-produced fighter aircraft models in WWII like the P-38 Lightning, Il-2, and Bf 109.

Greta says at 1:30 in her video, "When liberation movements were fighting for independence from colonial rule across Africa".

I don't know much specifics. Search for "cuba involvement in african war" gives the Cuban intervention in Angola on Wikipedia and a featured snippet from Cuba’s Role in Angola Changed the Course of African History.

People might have different opinions about that war. Maybe people in Angola really appreciate Cuba and think positively of it.

But people in Vietnam also think positively of the US, despite the US fighting on the losing side.

I honestly don't know much about Puerto Rico. The line from A Chorus Line's Nothing, that originally refers to San Juan, which Lea Salonga changed to Manila in this performance. But I do know they don't vote in US elections or pay income taxes despite being US citizens, and maybe it's like a colony that the US never lost. In an alternate history, maybe there was a bloody war for the independence of Puerto Rico that resulted in a million dead or injured, just like Angola.

You know the quote from Machiavelli, which I hope to prove wrong, but it begins,

It was the verdict of ancient writers that men afflict themselves in evil and weary themselves in the good, and that the same effects result from both of these passions. For whenever men are not obliged to fight from necessity, they fight from ambition; which is so powerful in human breasts, that it never leaves them no matter to what rank they rise.

I mention this also because of Greta reposting a video about the Balochistan conflict, which is also driven by a desire for independence.

Maybe I even created a survey about this, near the start of the Ukraine conflict. Basically, countries don't start out with everyone who wants to be in a new, different country all situated in the same area. There's at least some degree of mixing. In Iraq, the sectarian conflict led to people moving to different neighborhoods, I think; there was never any plan to actually make two countries (or three, with the Kurds) out of Iraq, but the conflict did create or exaggerate physical differences in clustering that weren't there before the invasion.

So, if Balochistan did become a new country, like South Sudan did through a referendum (one difference being that support for independence is much lower in Balochistan than it was in South Sudan, lower even than Quebec), what about all the people who currently live in that area who don't want to be a part of that country? At some point, people just have to get along with each other. This is why Russia avoided fighting with Ukraine for eight long years.

Greta ended by saying, "The people in power do not act unless we compel them to."

The poll that Greta did not make:

Poll: You, as one human, are X% of the population who has Y% of the income or wealth. How responsible are you for the problems you see in the world and society?
Less than X% and Y%
Between X% and Y%
More than X% and Y%

"unrelated to Greta posting on Instagram, the video "How Your Parents Ruined Driving" which I didn't watch made me think up a poll. If Reddit polls were working I think I would have posted it myself. Instead, I am trying to get someone else to make it as a poll, and I think Pokimane would not post it, but I don't want to make another weblog post. So I am suggesting that Greta make this poll, which came from thinking about how people don't want to acknowledge their responsibility for shared problems like the vehicle size arms race, and would tend to just blame rich people for all problems"

Another, unrelated poll:

Hypothetical situation or poll:
You wake up in a room with two doors. If you leave through the left door, everyone of your gender except you, age 10~50, becomes 20% uglier. Right door, they become 20% more attractive. The genie also gives you $1m because it heard that you're poor.

And more polls which I may or may not have posted here before:

Poll: Does a neutron star make mistakes?
(Being human = dealing with mistakes and trying to mitigate them)

Poll: "Is it bad for law enforcement to engage in law enforcement?"

Poll: Which of these statements is more accurate?
The Earth is huge
The Earth is tiny

Poll: Which would you rather live in? A world in which falling in love with someone increases the chance you will hurt them; a world in which falling in love with someone decreases the chance you will hurt them

Poll: Is there a widely-known method that developing countries can use to prevent wealth from accumulating to a small number of people, without heavy taxes on capitalists or making capitalism illegal?

Poll: "Would it be bad if everyone who can only do tasks that 3 billion other people can also do made enough money to support themselves and another person?"

Poll: "Is there proof that bad people go unpunished?"

Topic: https://old.reddit.com/r/SeriousConversation/comments/1j41a4e/how_do_atheists_accept_the_idea_that_bad_people/

"Why does it matter if bad people go unpunished if I am not one of those bad people and I don't know anyone who is?" Reasoning: "if bad people weren't punished, I would be bad." Basis for reasoning: lack of awareness of the knowledge or performance penalties for being bad, aka 'conscience'. Reason for lack of awareness: maybe never done something bad, and suffered the consequence of remembering the bad thing.

Example: forcefully taking my older sister's tricyle, and not feeling happy for having taken it and used it, when I was like 5 years old or something.

Secondary reasoning: "it is important not to be stupid, or not to make stupid choices. If being bad is rewarded, then being good is stupid. It is important for the choice of being good to be a smart choice, even if it relies on belief and it can't be proven to be the smart choice." What I said to my oldest sister in 2012, that religion allows people to think that they are being selfish.

Poll: "Do you think a typical person in your country benefits more from thinking that committing a crime is likely to lead to punishment, or thinking that it won't lead to punishment?"

Poll: "Do you think a typical person in your country benefits more from thinking that committing a serious crime is likely to lead to punishment, or thinking it won't?"

Poll: "How many people per year being scammed out of $30k would it take for scams to become a national conversation?" 1000, 20k, 100k, 500k, 2m, 10m, 50m

I had sort of also wanted to link this video, comparing the actions of these lions to the US's bullying of Venezuela and Cuba: [9.3m views, 10 Mar 2026, ending with cubs lined up]Older lion cubs teach "kids" not to bite Dad - YouTube

I like how all three of the young cubs line up, one behind the other, at one point in the video. For some reason, it was where the 2nd and 3rd cubs wanted to position themselves.

Greta's video is about an unimportant problem. It may seem like leaders like the US's president, or the leaders of the nuclear weapons states of western Europe which are friendly with the US, are doing a harmful thing, but it is not that harmful for people to be reminded of their unhealthy addiction to fossil fuels. On other important issues, leaders are neither being harmful nor helpful, because they don't know what to do. The responses to these polls would make that clear. Greta herself is a leader, and she is not doing anything to fix important problems, either.

At 00:00 GMT (coincidentally, as I didn't check the time before doing so), I did a Google search for, "Without criticizing the story Greta posted or reposted about Cuba, if Greta posts any Stories on Instagram in the next 72 hours, it means Imane doesn't like me". This was before my Internet stopped working for a while. I have, quite clearly, criticized the video that Greta made (which had not yet showed up on Picuki even though the 1-minute Story of the first minute of the video was visible), but this was sort of just as something to say along with the fact that I didn't check the status light on my router.

Thursday, March 12, 2026

To Imane, pt 43

I'm writing because one of the Stories visible on Greta's Instagram account via Picuki is about the war in Sudan. I will decide later who I am writing to.

As far as I can tell, from the Wikipedia articles "2019 Sudanese coup d'état", "Khartoum massacre", "Next Sudanese general election", and "2021 Sudanese coup d'état", people are fighting because they want power and cannot agree who should have power.

This might sound like it's the reason for a lot of fighting, but notably, this explanation does not touch on any specific issues that people disagree on, other than "who should be in power".


Poll: A conflict in which 1000 people die is more similar to which of the following?
An Internet argument between two people who hurl insults at each other
A war where 2 million civilians and 500k soldiers die


12 Mar 2026
Poll: Why is there fighting between Russia and Ukraine?
- Because the Russian government is bad
- Another reason

(Attempted escape of president of Sudan with $7m in cash-filled suitcases)
Poll: If your current wealth and yearly income tripled, do you think you would act in a more moral way or less moral way?

(disagreements about power that led to Khartoum massacre)
Poll: What is the greatest amount of governmental corruption that you think would be still be better than an ongoing war? 1% to 100%

Poll: Teleportation booths are invented that can be used only by people, not cargo, to instantly teleport to any other booth at no cost (but immigration laws are still enforced). Any factory can employ anyone, if laws allow it. Would this reduce or increase global unemployment?


The last poll is about how you would fix the situation in Sudan. I don't know why the economy got worse, prompting the 2019 revolution. FRED has Gross Domestic Product Per Capita for Sudan, but this uses the exchange rate. So a lot of the drop around 2018 is from the currency exchange rate dropping from 0.15 to 0.02. World Bank has PPP GDP per capita, and it's only a small drop before 2019, when the revolution happened.

Wikipedia for Sudanese pound mentions oil.

Since the secession of South Sudan in 2011, Sudan has suffered from a scarcity of foreign exchange for the loss of three-quarters of its oil resources and 80% of foreign exchange resources.

2011 South Sudanese independence referendum:

Minister of Petroleum Mr. Deng said he fears that an immediate budget cut for the north would ignite a war. "In order to avoid conflict, we could look to a phase-out arrangement whereby you provide the north some [oil] until they get an alternative". The pipeline to export southern oil currently cuts through the north, and the south has not begun construction on a pipeline that would avoid that route.

It does have an official exchange rate. So people were upset when foreign imports became more expensive, after the change in official exchange rate.

I don't know how much of the government budget came from oil, and not checking. The second FRED data series that has recent (post-2010) data was Youth Unemployment Rate for the Sudan. Low unemployment seems like it should be good? And maybe it was, until the fighting started?

Transport costs are a barrier to trade. It's supposedly cheap to transport things by sea, seen in things like what percent of the greenhouse gas emissions of food is from sea transport, vs 'last mile' of people driving to the store. (Of course if I ever go to the store, I walk, which is less efficient and slower than a bike.) A search for "what percentage of transportation costs to reach the midwest in the us from china are sea transport?" did not give an AI answer, but it did give a somewhat relevant chart, Logistics Costs, United States, 1980-2024. Shows that the US had $730 billion in inventory carrying costs, $1670 billion in transportation costs, and $180 billion in administrative costs.

If everyone in the US was poor, the administrative costs would be lower, but the cost of fuel would be the same. The vehicles might be cheaper, but maybe not much cheaper. Repairs could be cheaper, but a new vehicle would cost the same no matter which country buys it. This is $4800 in transportation costs for each person in the US; Sudan's per-capita GDP was $1k in in 2024.

So if people in Sudan could teleport to factories in China that are close to the ocean, their potential to be employed if everyone in the world worked less would be higher than in the current world. (The potential for them to be employed might decrease if everyone else in the world could also teleport to those factories, though.)


Ok kind of funny that I didn't know about Stories until a day or two ago, and a search result for "instagram stories" says that "Stories is one of the most used parts of Instagram". Now I know.

Tuesday, March 10, 2026

To Imane, pt 42

Occupatio, according to Enclycopædia Dramatica:

The word refers to a rhetoric technique in a debate or trial whereby the speaker would predict his opponent's behavior/argument before they'd made it. This prevented their opponent from pursuing that line of action. If they do pursue that line of action, then they seem like the mindless puppets of the original speaker.

[...]

If Secunda responds, she proves that she's nothing more than Prima's lol-cow. If she doesn't respond, then Prima has succeeded in silencing Secunda and her stupid argument.


First Google Images result for "iran bomb picture un" (following "iran bomb", "iran bomb un" (12th), "iran bomb image un" (3rd)):

https://www.cnn.com/2012/09/27/world/new-york-unga


The Agreed Framework between the United States of America and the Democratic People's Republic of Korea:

DPRK's graphite-moderated 5MWe nuclear reactor, and the 50 MWe and 200 MWe reactors under construction, which could easily produce weapons grade plutonium, would be replaced with two 1000MW light water reactors (LWR) power plants by a target date of 2003.

[...]

On May 31, 2006, KEDO decided to terminate the LWR construction project.


1990s North Korean famine

Panmunjom axe atrocities incident

First Wikipedia search result for "israel lebanon cut observation tree shot":

2010 Israel–Lebanon border clash

First Google Search result for "iran bomb picture un":

Iranian official posts image that appears to depict a nuclear strike on Israel

Mehdi Mohammadi, a strategic adviser to Mohammad-Bagher Ghalibaf, wrote,

“That story was posted by the admin of my page and was deleted a few minutes later. I personally do not believe that developing nuclear weapons would enhance Iran’s deterrence. At the very least, it’s an extremely complex issue."

"Just as possessing nuclear weapons hasn’t prevented Israel from receiving heavy blows, or enabled Ukraine to strike Russia decisively, the military utility of nuclear arms is far more limited than most people imagine.”

Iran–Israel war, rebranded the Twelve-Day War (approximately 455 times as long as the shortest war) due to the current war, casualties section:

Israel, 32 civilians and 1 off-duty soldier killed. Iran, 1,190 killed (436 civilians, 435 military personnel, and 319 unidentified).

Unless people make the move to declaring the winner of a war to be the side that killed fewer children, it makes sense to say that Israel won this conflict, with Iran having at least 435 times the military casualties. It does not seem like Israel received any heavy blows, despite what the Iranian public and low-level officials might believe.


A Russian comment on the video, Questing in Classic #worldofwarcraft:

Когда я слышу эти звуки игры,музыкальную тему степей,меня захлёстывает ностальгия, хочется плакать по ушедшему времени (

When I hear these sounds of the game, the musical theme of the steppes, I am overwhelmed with nostalgia, I want to cry for the past (


(The "(" is a sad face emoticon)

Film: War of Internet Addiction, images of players being turned into images of game characters

First result for https://www.google.com/search?q=polzie+pvp+2+original+audio is on the Russian social networking site VK.

Russian people watching a video with English songs and overlay text, made by a French person playing the game with French game text.

The ending of The Last Ovski ! (2005) by Gegon, from around 18:09.

Why all of this? Because of the letter Z. Used by the Russian military during the start of the fighting in Ukraine, painted on vehicles by low-ranking soldiers without any orders to do so. The last letter of the alphabet, according to two search engines, and used symbolically in works like Reality Z (2020) and World War Z (2013). It was supposed to be the last war.

Sunday, March 8, 2026

To Pokimane, pt 41

This post is because I watched a video of Pey's, HELLO HAPPEY FRIYAY! :D from 10 Jan which will be deleted in a day or two, and near the end someone gifted 20 subs after asking if Pey would help the viewer learn to play World of Warcraft if he gifted subs. I think she didn't acknowledge the message before he gifted the subs as she was busy talking, but the end result was that the viewer was not helped. I wanted to try to help him, but I cannot do whispers on Twitch due to lack of a phone number. This person has done some streams, but if they did not, I would have no way to contact them, instead of just a chance of contacting them.

The person, Xiaoyu, whose Douyin accounts I linked in the previous post seems to have deleted all the videos on her secondary account. The message I got when trying to view those videos on a tab that I had open was, "该视频已被删除" "The video has been deleted."

I have seen some headlines or video titles about Israel getting attacked by more countries. I know it's fighting with Lebanon now; I don't know if that means Lebanon's official military or what. I don't know what countries other than Lebanon and Iran might be fighting with Israel right now, but what I know suggests that other countries decided to help Iran because of a shared religion, despite the slogan used in Iran, Neither Gaza nor Lebanon, My Life for Iran.

So I'm making this about religion. Noting that person who controlled the Chirp Club account @fancyfenty before it was deleted is Muslim, based on comments she made about haram and so on, and that Turkey/Türkiye as a NATO member that stores "approximately 20 United States B61 nuclear bombs at the Incirlik Air Base" is probably not fighting with Israel despite being 99.8% Muslim.

If you don't share the idea now, it means you think Islam is dumb and that Islamic countries deserve to be viewed as worse than other countries.

Friday, March 6, 2026

To Pokimane, pt 40

Info:

https://www.google.com/search?q=china+salty+fish+slacker+explained

https://x.com/tiff_ilosophy/status/1946519461034688627

https://www.theworldofchinese.com/2021/06/stop-trying-to-make-lying-flat-happen/

https://www.reddit.com/r/noveltranslations/comments/nj41el/anyone_know_the_meaning_of_salted_fish/

https://www.theworldofchinese.com/2021/04/china-spiritual-capitalists/


User with Douyin ID @79230039490 changed her display name from "肉肉丸" to "·摆烂小鱼", which Google translates as "Slacking off Little Fish" or "Sluggish Little Fish". The name on her second account @xiao.ru.888 went from "咪咪爱发癫" to "*鱼酱", even though she only uploaded one video in the past month.

I think it's fair to say that glasses usually make someone look less attractive. (Pey was happy when she got laser eye surgery and no longer had to wear glasses; I am just making an objective statement about appearances.) And yet she wears glasses in all of her videos, doesn't use a lot of image warping, doesn't use zooms or algorithm optimization tricks like blurring the start of the video, and leaves a lot of empty space above her head. In short, the 'slacking little fish' label seems accurate.

To be honest, the third explanatory link made me think about my motivations. It showed a male sprawled on a couch, who compared to the male leads in Chinese dramas did not look attractive. This idea is about working less, so it makes sense to try to associate working less, or slacking off, with attractive people.

The lighting her videos makes me want to work on the MMD shader that I haven't made because I'm concerned that me doing so could act as a reason for someone to delay sharing the idea. It's basically the same in all of her videos but more obvious with some outfits, like this one (another dance with same outfit). The light that illuminates her also shines through a window onto a bright floor, which isn't visible and which would look bad if it were visible. This makes surfaces that point towards the floor much brighter than in other directions.

People are more likely to change their name if they think they aren't important; maybe her name actually sounds like 'little fish'. (Apparently the character in A Dream Within A Dream is literally named 'little fish'.) And maybe she works hard in the job that earns money, but making and posting Douyin videos is her way of slacking off.

Apart from A Dream Within A Dream, other dramas have female leads with a 'slacking off' attitude. When Destiny Brings the Demon was translated on Viki by the Salted Fish Team. I think the female lead in Back From the Brink has a 'slacker' personality; also, I think I did not recognize her as the female lead in Legend of the Female General, despite watching like eight episodes of it and all of Everyone Loves Me, where she also starred. Showing how good she is as an actor to become a character with a completely different personality.

Notably, both A Dream Within A Dream and When Destiny Brings the Demon are 'transmigration' stories, featuring someone from modern times and modern work culture. (I guess the female lead in Love Game in Eastern Fantasy also sort of fits this pattern, as she 'slacks off' by thinking about or reading novels, but she doesn't really demonstrate this tendency within the story. Instead she gets her father within the story to do lots of exercise, to the point where he runs away to escape.) I can't much more about them because I haven't finished any of these three dramas, but the characters must have been written and acted with this type of personality because of viewers who identify with it.

It isn't the only personality type in dramas, for modern characters who are transmigrated into a story. Fateful Love features a female lead (who also appears in Love Game in Eastern Fantasy and A Dream Within A Dream) who is an elite military operator, far from any 'slacker' stereotype. In A Dream Within A Dream, the female lead dies many times in the first episode (and in Love Game in Eastern Fantasy, the female lead dies so many times she almost stops caring), but in the donghua How Dare You, the transmigrated female lead is very afraid of the possibility of dying (Ep04) and works hard to achieve a good outcome within the story.


Maybe I only started emailing you in December because you had said and done some controversial things. And based on events, like Greta not posting anything on Instagram since 18 Feb, I can't rule out the whole 'government conspiracy' thing, and the possibility that your actions could have been influenced by my emails to other people, that mentioned you.

So maybe you might feel guilty. "A lie is justified if one does not benefit".

—luckily, I remembered what I was going to say, after spending way too much time looking up dramas. You know how the explanation of inequality, which I hope you read, compared people to children? That was deliberate; like Sergeant Lim comparing the soldiers to drew cartoons in the daily logbook to little children who kill insects without feeling guilty. ("Naharnet is the first independent Lebanese Digital Media providing real-time news and information in English and Arabic about Lebanon, the Middle East and the World.")

This isn't to say that young people never do terrible things. In Till the End of the Moon, the main male character is bullied at a young age by other young males. In the first episode of Lost You Forever, the main male character is bullied by other young males after his parents die, until he is defended by the main female character.

I didn't spend time planning this post out. It was supposed to take just a couple minutes, link a few things and say something brief. Maybe you did know that I mentioned you in emails. Maybe I wouldn't have tried to email you if you hadn't bought yourself the ring or said that you missed when streaming was about playing games, which let me know that you hadn't recently died.

Something about how you're probably the most-followed female English-language streamer, but most people still haven't heard of you. Like in the World of Warcraft stream where you speculated that someone you knew in high school who has a cool name didn't know that you streamed. Today I encountered a Douyin video from a few months ago with 28 million likes, almost as much as Gangnam Style which has 31m likes, and I had never encountered the creator before.

Other than to mention the slacker little fishes of the world, this post is to say that I will think of you as someone who does not feel guilty. If your actions do result from feeling guilty, then I will misunderstand them and attribute your motivations to something else.

(It took three hours to write this post)

To Pokimane, pt 39

Knowledge specialization: yesterday, I came across a video (title "The Big Bang has a Big Problem", thumbnail "Where is all the lithium?"), and rather than watch the video I checked Wikipedia for "Lithium problem". It has a chart. I spent a minute trying to understand the chart with its helpful description, and could not. Someone wrote the description with the intention that people would gain some understanding of a complex topic, that relies on calculations that are well beyond the scope of the article.

A comment: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=83Hg0LIKKn8&lc=UgzSX7UmFkZPrA1yqd94AaABAg

The video, "Deepwater Crew Arrives (Mark Wahlberg) | Deepwater Horizon", shows people with a different knowledge specialization, in like oil wells and drilling. Unlike many popular movies these days, the movie isn't about fighting. The audience is supposed to be impressed by characters, but by their competence in real-world topics, not by their ability to win a gunfight or their superpowers.

Like, another comment says,

“That is correct, morning Mr Jimmy” gets me every time 😆

which is about the competence of characters to infer the reason for a conversation and assign blame without appearing to assign blame.

Anyway, the linked comment. Someone said on another clip by the same channel (or another channel by the same creators, with similar ending graphics) that the channel just deletes and reuploads clips to farm views, so this video and comment might get deleted in the future. The linked comment says,

I’ve been riding them helicopters back and forth to oil rigs all over the Gulf for 26 years now and they keep going further and further out in the water every decade.  Deep water was one of the first ultra deepwater rigs with a dozen more built since.  And The engineers are working on a rig right now that will be nearly 200 miles out to sea drill off the shelf.

My dad started his career in the 60s working on oil rigs just a few miles off the coast.  At the time they would shuttle crews to the rigs by John boats.

My grandpa started his career in the 40s drilling shallow well in the Texas sand.

The point here is we are running out of oil.  In a hundred years we’ve went from being able to sink a well 80 foot in the ground using a small loan from a local and have enough oil to run the nation.  Now, we are going 100s of miles into the ocean, spending billions on infrastructure, and billions on tax subsidies to get enough oil. 

A reply to that comment says,

And 20 years ago Al Gore said we were all going to drown due to rising water and called it man-made global warming. However all the millionaires and billionaires, are still buying ocean front property. Yeah that would include all the politicians.

The original commenter replied to this comment. But, why did someone go from "we are running out of oil, and it's a problem" to "global warming is not a problem"?

Most people probably haven't heard about the Lakeview Gusher. It is a big contrast between that oil, and going far out to sea to drill. The comment is helpful because it shows a trend, and why would the drilling be far away from shore if it didn't have to be? Why weren't these locations being drilled 20 years ago?

I can't help but think, every time this comes up, that if humans go extinct for some reason and in 10 million years another intelligent species appears, they won't have oil. They probably won't even have coal. So how do you go from the society we had 1000 years ago, to today's civilization and technology, without coal or oil? I'm vaguely aware that the Watt steam engine "was a driving force of the Industrial Revolution", and a search for 'coal' in the article confirms that it did use coal as the energy source. So, no coal means no industrial revolution?

Anyway, the reply to this comment. The use of fossil fuels is linked to global warming. The commenter who replied saw a pattern: "a problem that makes people unhappy". They didn't have any way to make people think that oil is not running out. But they knew of evidence that could make people think that global warming is not a problem. If people go from thinking that global warming is a problem, to thinking it's not a problem, then they become slightly happier. Peak oil is not the same problem as global warming, but in the commenter's mind, the issues were related, and so the comment they made was relevant.

People don't like to talk about problems with no solution. But the original commenter did, even as someone who apparently is still working in the oil drilling industry. The other comments indicate that many viewers also have knowledge of the industry, like with the comment reply chain about how loud helicopters are, and the comment I linked has 34 upvotes (and is the longest comment on the video).

I just have to comment on an incredible coincidence: for those who don't know, if logged in to YouTube you can see other comments from a user on the same channel. The author of the comment I linked, @catchallaccount9643, has 6 comments on the channel. The three most recent are shown, and the third is from 9 months ago, with zero upvotes, and I feel like I read it before:

Wrestling, Jujitsu, mat work is really good to know but in a street fight the last place you want to be is on the ground.  That's when one of his buddies kicks you in the back of the head.

Which is a second point, though not related to the clip, if you find you are up against two or three guys ready to fight by far your best bet it to get out of there, run. [...]

Like I really think that I read this and spent a few seconds thinking about it when I first read it, like "would someone really be so focused on fighting one person that they would have no defense against someone else". It is really amazing that I would ever read two comments by the same person on different videos on YouTube.

Thursday, March 5, 2026

To Pokimane, pt 38

Doing a thing until I can no longer keep doing it. TTL5 Silver Playoff #3! (Gabi vs Bad Koala):

 

I've watched the first four games.

Not doing something because you don't have information about it isn't a mistake. It isn't useful advice to say to someone, "you should react faster when you get attacked in an unexpected location". It can be a mistake to be too focused on a particular area, but a spectator cannot describe the circumstances and priorities which determine where to focus one's attention.

It is a mistake when someone is looking at an area but makes a bad decision. At 43:21, Gabi rushes the tower but does not wall its four sides to trap the five villagers inside of it. No one does this, but it's the best play, and to not do it is a mistake. The caster comments that she "could quickwall this", but I'm not sure if he understands how ungarrison mechanics interact with walls, and how to fully trap the units without them being able to escape to the right. When Gabi walls in production buildings, like at 41:00, she unnecessarily walls the corners, and so might not be aware that walling the four sides of a tower traps the villagers.

At 1:02:07, she could have run her army to her ships just north of the fighting. (I thought the houses being built at 1:02:30 were kind of funny.)


The thought that I had was that "I am trying, by not trying". I have avoided mentioning the North Wind and the Sun, which probably a surprising number of people are unaware of, because if I was not trying to get you to share the idea, then it wasn't relevant. But, like, it was supposed to be that if I was enjoying myself, then Greta wouldn't get upset from thinking that her not sharing the idea was making me unhappy.

There are various things that players could do to perform better. People are more likely to listen to me if I can show that I am a competent player, which will not happen unless people share the idea. (When I could actually play AoE2, before my computer's fan broke and then the replacement fan that I paid for using Covid money got lost in transit due to Covid problems, it took something like 6 hours to play a 1.5 hour single-player game due to all the pausing that was needed for the UI to register actions and update itself.) So it's too difficult for me to enjoy watching people play when someone I want to win makes mistakes, and I can't do anything about it. I'm not ashamed to say that I hope Gabi won this set, as the best female player in AoE2 (she lost to another female player, Guki, in a tournament a year ago, but Guki does not seem to be active right now).

There was a time when I deliberately didn't reply, which was the last time Elyse emailed me. I was uncertain if her account had been hacked (or if my old email address had been hacked and started sending out spam), as the email didn't seem to make sense, but it's true that I didn't attempt to reply. And less than a year after that, I didn't reply to an email from Mei, and she might have thought it was intentional. A month or two later I had forgotten this email and was not sure if I had deliberately not replied or what had happened, and the same is true now, that I don't know why I didn't reply.

So the thing that I said is not to be tolerated is something that I may have done in the past. Wasn't sure if I should mention all of this.

So the question, do I want you to like me?

Maybe no one ever talks like this. I sort of asked Mei if she wanted me to like her, but I did it by referencing an email I had sent her by asking, "you know I'm crazy, right?" and she replied, "only a little".


Tangent: https://daughterofankh.blogspot.com/2011/12/king.html

the best way to get close to people is to make yourself seem less than you are, or

the best way to get close to people is to make yourself seem more than you are.

I just describe myself the way I am. For example, "I have never been on a date." Is this a good thing or a bad thing? In the drama, Everyone Loves Me, EP15, it's implied that this could be a good thing. But a common opinion is that a male with no experience must be unattractive. So, am I making myself seem more than I am, or less than I am? Am I trying to get closer to people or to push them away?


Maybe I am trying to make myself think that you don't like me, but I'm not trying to make you not like me. But there are considerations. Obviously, it doesn't matter if you like me if you don't talk to me. Although I am poor, maybe you don't care. What does matter is the idea. It's clear that if people don't use the idea, I will never be in a relationship. So, possibilities:

1) You don't share the idea, but you're confident that someone else will share it, like maybe Greta. I said that I wouldn't watch any more dramas unless you shared the idea, but maybe this outcome is still fine.

2) You don't share it and can't say whether anyone else will share it. It makes sense then to think that it will never be used, and therefore that you would be happier if you liked someone else, with whom you could actually expect to be in a relationship.

 

There was a quote from a TV show, which I think was the Singaporean drama Heroes in Black (2001). It was something I saw on an actual TV (I didn't own a computer at the time) in a common area of the house that I lived at, in the days or weeks when I was waiting to be shipped off for US army basic training. "Loves begs not for eternity, just for once to be a reality."

I stopped using or thinking of this quote after I mentioned it to Mei, before she left for Japan (a few months after the aforementioned events, with the unanswered email and me going crazy etc.), and she said that it wouldn't make her happy if we met.

There was a comic that I linked in the last mass email I sent about this idea, in early 2013 (just before Mei's birthday, which naturally was the reason I was stopping my emails at that time). I won't bother to look it up or describe it. But compare it to the seated dialogue scene between the two older characters in Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon (2000). (I remember in the director's commentary, a discussion about how this scene could have been placed at other points in the film.) Just generally, the idea of people doing the things they think they ought to do, instead of what they want to do.

So, it's possible to like someone even if you never end up in a relationship with them, as with the older characters in that film. And it's possible that when I just said above that "if people don't use the idea, I will never be in a relationship", I was wrong. But if people don't use the idea, then there is a slightly higher risk of death from like mass shootings and so on, or global pandemics that are handled poorly by all countries except for China, which actually contained the very infectious Omicron variant in Shanghai, which was the early 2022 spike in China's total cases.

Also see the video that I linked to Demi Rose Mawby (Mecha Love by Hadouken) and also linked in an email or post in mid-2012, with lyrics "you wanted the world, you wanted it all".


What's it going to be then, eh?

Wednesday, March 4, 2026

To Pokimane, pt 37

First the random things which I might forget.

'pt 15' has 113 views, compared to most of these posts with 2~5 views. I'm not sure if this was random search engine traffic because I mentioned a movie or more meaningful. It seems Blogger does not list traffic sources.

In the previous post, I forgot to mention the random fact that one of the GCB reports said that Israel had 80% of people who said that things are done based on who you know, more than any other country.

(With Douyin, it might be necessary to first visit the homepage and browse some videos to avoid seeming like a bot, if not logged in, before visiting a video link)

Best Douyin video I watched in the past few days:

霖木097 @49958705200 不理我那就… #相扑猫 #幻笺集卡牌 #幻笺集 #幻笺集瑞马启新 #幻笺集 新春集卡 Gohc rolm, that we is cool

Video where audio is 0.13 sec late, which should be like 0.3 sec late with added playback delay, and Like count shows that no one cares (despite being way over the recommended limit of 0.125 sec):

清颜好困啊 @22592496084 看得出来脑子一直在想动作 #慢摇 #卡点舞 ajudando non peja son

Video that I didn't find to be notable, with audio 0.26 sec early:

甜甜圈吖🍩 @? #随时随地开始扫腿舞 #扫腿舞 #喜悦X扫腿舞 #喜悦男团 @喜悦-X sexy dirty

About this third video. It almost seems like the audio sync was off by an entire beat, or ~0.9 sec early in total, and I even tested it to check. TikTok dances are almost always based off of 4-beat measures, with new actions coinciding with beat 1 or beat 3. (Compare a dance like Reversible Campaign, which is unpredictable enough that a lot of MMD videos have audio delayed by almost half a beat. The "u" at 0:27 is on beat 4.5, so movement that's half a beat early seems to match it. Or at 1:22 and 1:25, big movements are on beats 4 and 3, not beat 1.)

But I don't want to say anything bad about this video by 甜甜圈吖🍩. Saying good things: she hides her face with the bunny, but it looks like she did go to the effort of putting on eye makeup. The sync on the transition matches the overall sync of a 0.26 sec audio delay, suggesting that it looked like good sync on the device she used to create it and she wasn't sloppy with the transition timing. When she does the leg sweep, she rotates her leg each time she reverses direction so her knee is leading, except for at the very end. So the variation at the end is deliberate, and a detail which is supposed to make the performance better. The bunny moves at the end to cover her face, but in discrete steps instead of automatic tracking, so it again shows the work she did in creating the video. The overall sync is consistent, despite using two cameras which often leads to poor sync after a transition.

 

Why didn't I comment on your YouTube short about the ban review you did during your stream?

The excuse was "I'm not talking to anyone", which was supposed to include not commenting on YouTube. If I signed in to comment, I might have responded to other comments or replies, and people might have interpreted my comment as a general message, since it would sound crazy for a comment to be written as though only you would read it.

"I don't have a plan if you don't share the idea." I find it hard to remember that this was ever the case, but I think it was. The logic behind the plan: if you don't share it, I don't think anyone else will either. I don't like to say that I think Greta knows about this idea and yet I don't expect her to share it if you don't share it, because it's mean to say, but maybe other people would not want to think that it's what I expect, and so me saying it as a truthful thing will help.

So: "what if I didn't think there was anyone who liked me?" This is a different thing from no one liking me. But with sufficient evidence, people can be made to believe things that aren't true.

There was that scene from one of the novels in the Baroque Cycle by Neal Stephenson. The characters have just broken into the Royal Mint, I believe, with a probably-implausible plan involving a zip line. One character reveals that he has betrayed or lied to another character, who responds that whatever he did is not to be tolerated, and so begins a sword fight. The swords clash, and then both characters pause to see if a spark will detonate the gunpowder that surrounds them.

People not talking to me? Not to be tolerated.