Save the Rhinos!: Its

Computer is slow, memory is full, need to restart browser or computer due to memory leaks. My computer has been on for 32 days, and lightdm is taking up 253 MB swap when my system has only ~3 GB swap and 4 GB memory. The system monitor applet that is 40% of the reason I still use GNOME shows dark green for like programs (or 'User'), medium green for buffers, light cyan for cached, and black for free, and right now it's almost all dark green, with 54% swap used as well.

So I don't want to write this, as writing it does nothing to free up memory and make my computer less slow.

You retweeted https://nitter.net/IPTower/status/1993081917684801962

I saw the use of "its", and thought of a comment that I recently made, "Lol controversy. As if a Japanese person would never write in Japanese, act confident when talking in English to native English speakers, and mistake than/then and its/it's."

And I saw that it says, "send your wish", but when I tried to click on it my computer froze for 5~10 sec and I closed the tab. I will assume that if it has any kind of user input form, you probably wouldn't see it, just as I assume you probably didn't see the emails I sent to an address you provided for a project 5~10 years ago.

I again thought of the song, Kouya Ruten: 「刹那へと　消え失せても」(?) (literally the only reason I know the word "setsuna" and the pronunciation of "那" and I didn't know the first character at all but my IME did)

I recognize the date of this thought as being after your husband died. (I also recognize it as from before I was born, but that isn't important)

You know the song, 'Bad Apple'? It has a cool animation, with a history that I don't really know where someone requested a sequence of images and someone did it really well. It might even be described on Nicovideo's dictionary, though the videos are no longer accessible outside of Japan. All about black and white; whether the singer is black or white, and whether other things are black or white.

If people don't act happy, or don't pretend to be happy when they might not be, then maybe people will act more 'evil'. It shouldn't surprise you if I say that I think this is not important: whether people act good or evil does not have anything to do with whether the 'hidden problem' is fixed. Like I said in 2009, without fully understanding what I meant but just guessing: "change is necessary". If everyone acted 'mostly good', then people might think this is the best possible, and nothing would get fixed.

Whether people act good or bad, there will be people who want to fix problems that they see. Like, the analogy is ... well, maybe the best analogy would be earthquakes—

in fact, I was able to recover this from my closed tabs, a page that I opened ~20 hours ago:

https://www.bilibili.com/video/BV1Lw411g7o6/

日本地震后，土壤“液化”滋滋冒水，这情况出现有特殊条件

"Following the earthquake in Japan, soil liquefied and began to ooze water; this phenomenon occurred under specific conditions."

I obviously did not try to watch this video as I don't know Chinese, I just translated the title to understand what it was about.

and

[4.57M views, 22 Jun 2025]Why Are Beach Holes So Deadly? - YouTube

so, change in general gives opportunity; and when things happen that people don't like, it can motivate them to try to change things, leading to a greater rate of change than when people are happy and content. ("Anle")

Regarding this idea, it's hard to speculate whether it wouldn't be used in other conditions when it hasn't been used in these conditions, but I can still try: right now it seems like it should be possible for things to be better, because we have very rich and very poor, and we also have 'democracy', where many poor people can forcibly take money from the rich, or at least lets people think that rich people don't control everything. If everyone was poor, who would think that things could easily change within just a few years?

This is a different condition than "people thinking that others are well-intentioned". Order can arise out of chaos, but order cannot always transform itself into a different type of order.

Not really important. I would just say, "I respect people who think this way."

And suicide? I had been slowly watching episodes from Korean drama Tomorrow (2022) when I lost access to Netflix because my brother, who paid for the subscription used by several family members, was upset about the price increase or crackdown on sharing. I also remember that in the drama Tiger and Dragon, the character Megumi accidentally gets in a van with a bunch of people who intend to kill themselves, similarly to the van at the start of Tomorrow.

Obviously, if I had killed myself in 2009 as I said I would when Mei did not reply to me, I would not have thought of this idea. I don't see that as an argument for people acting happy, as with your poem or the Imagine Peace Tower. There are 8 billion other people who could have thought of this idea.

My open tabs at this moment:

1) DJ Men Enjoy Car Audio Show with Coyote Dancers 2014 File 08a - YouTube

I shared this idea with the person who uploaded this video, 13 or 14 years ago, when YouTube had private messaging capabilities. He said it was interesting. There is one video from ~2009 in which he is visible, filmed by another person, as I was able to conclude by comparing it to the video he had uploaded of the same moment. It would appear it's one of these three videos:

Pattaya Hottest Coyote Dancer[Motor Show 2010, same dancer 'Pattaya Countdown 2010 Car Audio Coyote Show 11'] [tq1wqX_ARv0].webm

Pattaya Coyote Dancers[Motor Show 2010 Poker Face, matches 'Pattaya Countdown 2010 Car Audio Coyote Show 13' -144s] [pllCA04_TkI].webm

Pattaya Coyote Dancer[Motor Show 2010 You Spin Me Round, matches 'Pattaya Countdown 2010 Car Audio Coyote Show 11' +10s] [Aph7HmQZ8oo].webm

2) https://www.iwara.tv/profile/luciferccc/videos

I realized that there is a cultural difference here. These videos, which are probably illegal in China, were made by a Chinese person, presumably using data made by another person but likely shared within Chinese communities (therefore, suggesting the data represents attitudes held by many Chinese people).

In a lot of videos by Japanese or English-speaking users, R18 videos featuring males and females have the males taking an active role. In many of these videos, the male is completely passive, even though the motion data includes the body of the male moving due to applied forces.

The explanation, presumably, is that the activities portrayed are bad: in China, it's seen as better if the male is not seen as responsible for the bad activity, while in Japan and the US the explanation of the male being responsible is seen as more acceptable.

(See also, the story on ChinaSMACK or something, which is now offline, where a female Chinese person in a hotel jumped out of a window to kill herself after she realized she had been r***d, from 2010 or 2011.)

Many people think, "everyone is bad, and people who pretend not to be bad are just pretending." What if some people are not bad?

As a counterpoint, I have become aware that an adult website featuring Japanese actresses, but ostensibly managed in a different country, has had a significant audience from China: the website whose theme song is featured in this video.

In the comments for a different video specifically for that song, I read a story by a Chinese male about how his dad wanted a ringtone for his phone, and the male set it to that song, with the song supposedly being recognized — but not commented on — by various other people throughout the day.

3) about:config

4) https://nitter.net/___yaara

5) https://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=完美世界

6) https://nitter.net/yokoono/

7) Why the UN hates Anime - YouTube

8) 外国人対応の厳格化「評価する」71％　毎日新聞世論調査（毎日新聞） - Yahoo!ニュース

9) Japanese Girl's HONEST OPINION On Weebs - YouTube

10) Jealous women ruin '25 Girls vs 1 Secret Man' - YouTube

11) How Japanese Choose Their Pronoun - YouTube

12) https://nitter.net/politicalawake/with_replies

13) https://nitter.net/randomyoko/with_replies

14) If introverts were in thriller movies - YouTube