Deleted post

A post I made on my personal weblog, in December 2009. It was a like allegory: a very short story, which I can practically recreate from memory at much lower quality:

A village setting, before fossil-fuel-based technology, so 'medieval' or a typical fantasy setting.

Character 1 or characters, who are strangers, address Character 2, saying something like, "we have come to free your village from the dragon who has been terrorizing it."

Character 2 looks past them, at the peaceful village and fields.

In this analogy, I was Character 1, being upset at Mei, who was character 2, for things like her not talking to me.

I deleted this post at some point after, maybe within a few days, and I think also deleted some other posts that I don't remember. I don't think I deleted the one where I linked to an old post where someone talked about how they hated the word "blog" and implied that most writings in "blogs" were useless; but if no such post exists, then it's because I deleted it.

I wrote this post because by that point, it was possible that Mei knew about that weblog. One could imagine that after I wrote it, Mei could have read it and changed her interactions with me. Me deleting it followed from my conclusion that this had not happened. I don't know if she read it, before I deleted it, and so if she is alive and remembers my existence, this post about it might be the first she has heard of that post.

If I had left up this post, which appeared to be a fictional narrative with no conflict and no resolution, it could have been interpreted as a subtle critique of Mei. I think that, by this point, any possible negative consequences are now unavoidable, and I am, of course, to blame if not deleting this post would have avoided these consequences.

Regarding whether people are good or not

I just thought of two polls.

The first poll:

"Do you think it is ethical to vote for policies which take money from the poor and give it to the rich?"

The second poll:

"Do you think it is ethical to vote for policies which take money from the rich and give it to the poor?"

 

— which is really the first poll that I thought of, because it seemed like "Do you think that it is ethical to steal from the rich?" would not give a useful result, because the reasonable interpretation is that it's about an action which is illegal and usually dishonest (I was recently reminded of a rare example where someone stole money and posted a video online about what they had done), whereas voting is not illegal for most people.

Obviously, the objective is to show a difference in responses between these two questions; if the second poll (in which most people are expected to answer 'yes') was posted first, it would probably increase the number of 'yes' responses in the other poll, making the results of the two polls more similar.

(Note that stupid people might criticize someone who posted these polls, as they might interpret the order as intended to make more people answer 'no' in the second poll. Or in general, they might criticize these polls drawing attention to the fact that government policies do take money from the rich and give it to the poor, as they might feel this contributes to the weakening of these policies.)

(Confounding factor with these polls: most people do not vote for policies as in a democracy, but rather vote for representatives as in a republic, and a representative voting in a certain way could be seen as unethical if they

Grading controversy

https://nitter.net/TurningPointOU/status/1994156726225129932

I can't comment on the quality of writing. I do know that one of the recommended and proven strategies for getting high grades on essays, like for the writing portions of the SATs, is to simply memorize a lot of rare words and use them in the essay. And so it's possible that simply mentioning religious works in an essay could also lead to a lower score: negative biases by graders instead of positive biases.

The way to determine if this was an unusually low score would be to release other essays graded for the same assignment and their scores. This is unlikely to happen, so everyone is just speculating. Maybe one side will 'win' as a result of all this speculating, and the other side will be at fault for not attempting to change this from a situation based on speculation, to a situation based on facts.

I am commenting on the fact that it was not just a failing grade, it was a 0 score. In my experience, the only way to get a 0 score on a subjective assignment is to not do it at all. This is what happened with all projects assigned to me in my 11th grade US history class, including group projects. I was too busy to do a good job on them, and so I just did not do them at all, rather than spend 10 minutes on a poor project that would receive an F score but still be worth at least half of the total points.

So, if the professor wanted to give a failing grade for this paper, with standard grading it would have been enough to give it 14 points. Instead, the professor gave 0 points.

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Update 29 Nov 2025, 15:52

PETTAN PETTAN TSURUPETTAN (HQ)

People being lazy

I wouldn't really have much to say about this:

https://nitter.net/butterbooter/status/1994133109395345545

But after seeing it 10 times, I realize that there is an aspect of the situation that might not be obvious, and if someone was, for example, going to watch one of these videos that I bookmarked rather than watching,

The British Man Pretending to be Japanese | feat. Colonel Otaku Gatekeeper, Arin Yumi - YouTube

The definition of I just work here - YouTube

‘I’ll kill you,’ off-duty cop yells before fatally shooting man who tried to grab her gun - YouTube

No Rae, I respect you too much - YouTube

Japanese Kids Have no Filters #Japanese #FunnyKids #JapaneseVariety #japaneseshow #Japan #shorts - YouTube

The Most Shocking Japanese Speaker Ever - YouTube

PewDiePie Former Editors Conspired Against Him - YouTube

THIS Is Who Students Think Attacked Us on 9/11?! - YouTube

Elon Musk Just Doxed Everybody - YouTube

Yes, AI Will Take Your Job. But What Happens NEXT Is Worse - YouTube

then it might not be a waste of time to read what I have to say about this instead.

About using automated solutions: basically the way I re-learned how to play Age of Empires II was to the change the first player, me, to AI. When doing this, AI plays the game as normal, but you can also give commands to units. It can be a little frustrating at times due to the AI trying to countermand your orders, but it's sort of like an interactive tutorial, teaching general patterns that are broadly correct.

When I started, I remembered little: I would not have been able to name buildings like the blacksmith and university, or which buildings depend on what. Even after some months, I still thought it was a bug when I was unable to build a market, due to not having a mill. So the AI was much more competent than I was at first. And yet, using the AI did not prevent me from learning. (I still was never really able to play normally due to poor system performance, forcing me to constantly pause in order to e.g. make menus disappear that wouldn't otherwise disappear, or stop the screen from scrolling.)

About writing specifically. I don't think I ever read anything written by a classmate, or that any classmates read anything written by me. Basically, I never had a reference for the quality of writing other people could offer.

So if people's writing is bad when they aren't allowed to use 'AI', I don't know if it would have been bad even if 'AI' didn't exist. I know reading skills have been getting worse, and that Covid in particular led to people in the US having a lower quality of education during those years, but I don't know what the general trend was (for stuff like maths performance) before 'AI' and Covid.

Basically, 'AI' is available in every country with Internet. The availability of 'AI' has not stopped young people in Korea and China from being in classes for most of their waking hours. The trend towards lower classroom performance in the US is honestly not too different from something like young people being potty-trained at a later age, which has nothing to do with their native intelligence or 'AI', and everything to do with how their parents treat them.

I honestly think a more likely effect is that the use of 'AI' to write words simply results in more words. This includes words like the ones used when submitting job applications: someone using 'AI' will be (is) able to provide more unique words, tailored to specific job openings, which probably means more job offers. What if someone writing on their own can only apply to 50 jobs, but someone using 'AI' can apply to 50,000 jobs?

My perspective, basically, is of someone who saw resources like Sparknotes that were available 20 years ago as providing negative value. To be honest, I only struggled to read a book once: The Mists of Avalon, which was the required summer reading for my 12th grade class, but I neglected to start reading it until like a week before school started, and reading it (while taking notes) took so long that I only finished the essay hours before school started, so I spent the first day of school sleep-deprived. So just as I asked, "why would someone who has plenty of time for fun activities and hanging out with friends not just use that time to read the book that their English teacher has decided is important?", I would ask about 'AI', "why would someone not take the time to write their own words for an assignment?"

So, maybe someone could use 'AI' to learn how to write better by following its patterns. But if the goal is only to save time, then someone might let an 'AI' write for them without even reading its output themselves, and then they are not learning anything, but then I have to ask: what are the incentives this person has, such that they are indifferent to the possibility that they will not learn anything from school?

Not sure of title

(If anyone cares, my browser had the display bug after I checked Giggly aka Madison's account and investigated a Tiktok account that she had mentioned via a retweet)

I was thinking of naming this post Zelda, but that made me think of Robin Williams's daughter with that name. (I recently saw an image somewhere in which Robin Williams had been made to look like Link, and maybe Zelda looked like his daughter with that name but I don't really know what she looks like, so there is a non-trivial cultural awareness of her name.)

The song P. Tchaikovsky - Pas de Deux ('The Nutcracker'), used in a montage of scenes from the Zelda franchise.

I have almost certainly never watched the entire Nutcracker sequence, as a film or otherwise. Simply put, it lacks an engaging story, and I believe the prince is killed when fighting the mice near the start, before being revived or something. My youngest sister's favorite movie is probably Amadeus, and in contrast to The Nutcracker I have seen the film Amadeus more than once.

I did learn the Russian Dance Trepak from the Nutcracker on piano once, and maybe another song from it, but most songs from it, including Pas de Deux, never particularly interested me.

I don't like to say this, but it is conceivable that someone who cares about me could have the logic, "it is good if more people care about me, the person writing on this weblog. If other people don't share this idea, then I (the person writing this) will contact more people, and some of them might be female, and some of the ones who are female might end up being attracted to me (the person writing this)." So if Giggly aka Madison does not like me, it shows that people causing delays is not helpful for me.

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Update 28 Nov 2025, 19:00

So about a Chirp Club post I won't bother to link; a quote of a post about the word 'parasocial', which got an order of magnitude more engagement than the original post itself and is apparently responsible for 80% of the original post's views by embedding it.

"A connection that someone feels between themselves and someone they do not know."

Interestingly, Wiktionary's definition,

"One-sided (especially of a relationship, as for example that between a celebrity and their audience or fans, whom they do not know)"

is saying that the celebrity has the parasocial relationship, rather than that the fans have the parasocial relationship.

Chinese version of Three Body, maybe the first episode. The detective asks the scientist if the female scientist whose casual photo he took was someone he knew, and then the detective corrects his question to state, "someone you did not know, but someone you wanted to know."

They did not know each other, but both knew the other existed. When the photo that started the story was taken, the female scientist saw that it was taken and who had taken it.

To state the obvious, it showed that the male scientist thought the female scientist was comfortable with having her picture taken, as she was an important person who received a lot of attention. Sometimes people are not comfortable with having their picture taken and they verbally object, or they ask to have the photo deleted (抖音街拍穿搭 _ Mejores Street Fashion China TikTok _ Tiktok China Thời Trang Đường Phố Ep.19 [JhrtW0iFKLs] at 2:47, +unrelated), but this did not happen.

Suzuran

That story, In a Grove, which Rashoumon is based on. I have neither read the short story, nor seen the film. I am just referencing the fact that the husband or fiancé was angry at his wife when he was summoned as a ghost, for reasons he did not explain. And it just shows how people will hide the wrong actions of other people.

Topic: Clannad. (Why didn't I want to put this as the title? Because I didn't like it?)

This shows up on lists of top animes; did I link such a list? It shows some people being happy; then one of them dies; then the other one is unhappy.

Mei seemed to use the story as a reason why it would be better if we didn't meet. The fact that in the story, the person who dies is female and she dies during childbirth isn't important; it seemed possible that she viewed me as similar in temperament to the female character, and so she was concerned with the possibility that she would be unhappy if I died.

And there is no argument against this. I cannot control whether other people are happy, especially if I am dead.

This might be why I do not have a feeling that anyone is going to do anything to get people to use this idea. Is it about someone acknowledging their mistakes? I don't know. But if someone acts in a certain way, I don't think it's unreasonable to expect them to continue to act in the same way.

Zero views

For anyone who cares, the last three posts have 0 views.

Really, all I want is to download the Douyin videos that I have bookmarked, primarily from yana826. If yt-dlp worked with Douyin, I might be able to do it in less than an hour. But it doesn't, at least not for me, so downloading them is slow and often involves a process of seeing other videos and investigating them, which is like a virus spreading where if the infectivity constant r is 1.001, it's drastically different than if it's 0.999.

It also means convincing Douyin that I'm not a bot, which meant watching random videos, including this one about the building fires in Tai Po, Hong Kong: https://v.douyin.com/0Elygm9xZFc/

You said something today, which means that it will be two days until I check Giggly aka Madison's account.

I would like to not say anything about this, and therefore gather more data on whether you have access to knowledge which you should not.

If you have such knowledge, and if Giggly aka Madison has such knowledge, then one cannot avoid asking whether other people have such knowledge.

I tried to email Pokimane around the start of last year. I didn't describe or link to this idea.

But, what if she has knowledge that she should not?

I don't think that anyone should care about the question of what kind of behavior I might consider attractive. Even though I am not in a relationship, it seems likely that if any specific person is interested in me, then whatever makes them interested in me also makes at least one other person who knows about me interested in me, which might matter if people used this idea and I was no longer poor.

But I think that in general, people like intelligence. That many types of behavior are of interest because they indicate intelligence (and that certain behaviors indicate intelligence when used in one situation, while also indicating a lack of intelligence in another situation, so it can be hard to advise someone on which behaviors they should demonstrate).

So, I am commenting about Pokimane because I watched a video from ~7 years ago in which Pokimane shows her gameplay, and also because I learned that she bought an engagement ring for herself. (And because of the fire in Hong Kong, and the fact that in checking BBC for whether this fire was an international news topic, I saw an article from today about Nigeria that linked to a 2024 article about the Chibok girls, according to which the government is paying at least $180 in education per month for each of them, but only giving them $15 for their own use.)

I think the best scenario is that Pokimane does not have knowledge that she should not have; no one who reads this post takes it seriously; and nothing happens.

I deleted or made private (probably deleted) the posts that mentioned Demi Rose Mawby. I think it's fair to say that when she acted in a way that suggested she has knowledge she shouldn't, I was a little annoyed. Before I started writing this, I was thinking of making a Reddit post, about another hypothetical scenario: something like, there is a button that will help other people, even save lifes, and your romantic interest knows this and is not pushing the button, even when you tell them to. Do you reach past them and push the button, implying that they did not do something they should have done?

For me, there is no button. But I don't think I would hesitate to push it if there was one; and based on my limited knowledge, I cannot rule out the possibility that this post will accomplish something, so it's like pushing a button that probably doesn't work.

One might say that it was hard to truly get upset at Sherine or anyone who might have been able to influence what Sherine did, like Yara or Autumn. Although I said I would move on to other actions if Sherine had clarified whether she had shared this idea, these actions are what I ended up doing anyway, years later; like using arguments that did not mention someone who committed a serious crime, and trying to get you and other influential people to share this idea.

Sherine's ability to influence other people to share this idea was always in doubt. In that sense, if Demi Rose Mawby has knowledge she shouldn't, then, it was a test: how would I act if someone who had the ability to cause change, did not?

And so I acted annoyed, and I said I was happy that her father had died, but if she is aware of my existence at all, I did not try to make her think that I was truly angry at her (distinct from annoyed).

I don't know how Demi Rose Mawby would score on a standardized test, like college entrance exams. Just that she didn't much like school, and I guess the scene from the original Addams family movie with Wednesday at the dock; I don't really remember its relevance. I say all of this out of the concern that someone would interpret my actions as that I think Pokimane is smarter than Demi Rose, based on what I saw of Pokimane's gameplay.

So: if Pokimane has knowledge that she shouldn't, I think that she should share this idea. I don't think she has such knowledge, and I think that if she does, and even if she became aware that I wrote this which would not necessarily follow, that she would not share this idea.

If Pokimane had participated in the second season of OnlyFangs in WoW Classic Hardcore, I would have watched her gameplay and perhaps reached a conclusion about whether she read the emails I tried to send to her. But she did not, and so I know almost nothing that she has done since she moved from Twitch to YouTube at the start of last year, until the recent drama resulting from her Chirp Club post on the topic of drama. (I know that she went to Japan with other female streamers.)

It's obvious that dumb people sometimes act in a smarter way than smart people. One can, for example, reach this conclusion whenever smart people are systematically targeted, as they might have been during the Cultural Revolution in China. So in general, while a stupid person with no influence won't accomplish anything by sharing this idea, a person who might not think they are the smartest, but who has influence, could cause change, and by not doing so they would be acting in a stupid way, even if they are doing the same thing as other people who scored highly on tests or on other metrics (such as Nobel prize winners, like the female Nobel prize winner in economics, now deceased, whom I tried to contact in 2011).

I would like to reiterate that there would seem to be no reason for anyone to care about what behaviors I might find attractive. I view the question of whether I could get someone to share this idea through romantic means to be answered: first by implying to Sherine that I would be in a relationship with her if she shared it (if I didn't die), and then explicitly when I offered to marry Catherine Rampell if she shared it, not knowing she was already married. (One of the very few cases where I know that someone actually read my emails, although she did not directly reply.)

False alarm

I woke up to find that my computer was off due to a power outage. When it turned on, there was a buzzing noise that I thought was from the hard drive, but I realized just now that it must have been from the DVD drive (which apparently no longer works, but still checks itself at bootup).

Then, after selecting the main hard drive to boot up, the screen was completely black. I tried pressing buttons, and eventually managed to get a blinking "_" cursor, and then the fsck utility's output about cleared inodes and a forced filesystem check, and I thought the delay was also indicative of a problem.

Eventually (after 10+ minutes), I came back just as it was ending and saw the message that fsck had exited with status code 1, which I was sure was very bad and that my hard drive was about to die, if I could even finish booting up at all.

But it turns out that this exit code means, "Filesystem errors corrected", which could have been the normal result of powering off suddenly.

So, after several tense minutes of backing up files that had not been backed up since as long as five months ago (browser bookmarks), I now believe that my system is completely normal. The sounds that I had thought were my hard drive being conspicuously louder than normal are, I now believe, completely normal. The SMART data shows no abnormalities, showing 1 Current Pending Sector and 1 Uncorrectable Sector, in a file I identified ~11 years ago, and the Power-On Hours still stuck at the maximum of 9 years, 11 months, and 27 days, as it has been for years.

I have a contingency plan, in the form of an SSD purchased with the very last of my Coronavirus money, but I don't think I would have used it if my computer had failed to boot up today. There is nothing I urgently need to say or do, and if I used this contingency plan, I would need to make a decision of whether to copy the photo of Kate that has been sitting on my desktop for the past 13 years over to my new OS installation. I don't think a reasonable person would say that it helps her for me to keep thinking of her after all this time.

Chronicles of the Catechist?

Just looked up what catechist is, and learned it's connected to Christianity, so this vaguely connects it to Nicki Minaj's recent support of efforts to stop killings of Christians in Africa, e.g. Nicki Minaj loses 100,000 followers after speaking out on Nigerian Christian killing crisis.

I was thinking about a video about a 'black' female streamer named Aliyawill. Some people said in the comments that if the dark-skinned elves in the Lord of the Rings TV series had looked like her, they would have liked it. I have not seen it so I cannot compare, but I did note that her hair (whether it's her natural hair or not) is straight, leading to coherent reflections.

People said something similar about Michelle Obama; that she may have felt pressured to have straight hair.

A lot of 'black' people do not have straight hair. This is just one of those random human things, having opinions about reflections from hair, that might be related to like water and cleanliness, to explain why people's attention is drawn by shiny things. I see no one in 'real life', so I can only judge from pictures and videos on a screen, and so I don't think I have a good understanding of whether I would think that shiny hair is attractive in more life, but I observe that hair that is ordered enough to be shiny (brushed) is common at least in Chinese shows, where everyone has black hair, suggesting that people do think it's attractive.

This made me think, what if African people wanted to have straight hair, instead of curly hair? And this made me think of skin color, and whether extremely dark skin suggests a culture where people spent a lot of time in the sun compared to people at latitudes with similar sun exposure but lighter skin.

And these thoughts about culture made me think of this book series, by Alan Dean Foster. The protagonist has dark skin, and he begins his journeys due to a shipwreck of 'white' people, one of whom tells the protagonist about a situation before dying.

I remember the moth-people dying from being attracted to a burning tree early on in the first book, and I remember the 'living sand dune' monster. I remember the existence of an important revelation during the climactic scene in the third book, but most of the story and events I have forgotten. I didn't look up, or know what 'catechist' was when I read the books, but the overall story, of doing a difficult thing for no other reason than that no one else was going to do it, made enough of an impression on me for me to think of it now.

(I do remember that it is mentioned, perhaps at the very end, that the main character has a family, and so even if the story appears to have the format of 'a princess in distress', there is no romantic connection between her and the protagonist.)

Do I remember the moth-people dying because people dying is regrettable? Do I remember the living sand dune because it seemed especially dangerous, more so than other things that happened? Do I remember anything at all from the second book or the majority of the third book?

I hesitate to say "I want to read these books again" because even though it's true, it doesn't help you for me to say this, but I think it's fair for me to act like what I say here isn't important, so this is just a reminder for myself and a recommendation for anyone who reads this post.

I don't recall any mention of whether the main character has curly hair, or any hair for that matter; only his skin color.

Its

Computer is slow, memory is full, need to restart browser or computer due to memory leaks. My computer has been on for 32 days, and lightdm is taking up 253 MB swap when my system has only ~3 GB swap and 4 GB memory. The system monitor applet that is 40% of the reason I still use GNOME shows dark green for like programs (or 'User'), medium green for buffers, light cyan for cached, and black for free, and right now it's almost all dark green, with 54% swap used as well.

So I don't want to write this, as writing it does nothing to free up memory and make my computer less slow.

You retweeted https://nitter.net/IPTower/status/1993081917684801962

I saw the use of "its", and thought of a comment that I recently made, "Lol controversy. As if a Japanese person would never write in Japanese, act confident when talking in English to native English speakers, and mistake than/then and its/it's."

And I saw that it says, "send your wish", but when I tried to click on it my computer froze for 5~10 sec and I closed the tab. I will assume that if it has any kind of user input form, you probably wouldn't see it, just as I assume you probably didn't see the emails I sent to an address you provided for a project 5~10 years ago.

I again thought of the song, Kouya Ruten: 「刹那へと　消え失せても」(?) (literally the only reason I know the word "setsuna" and the pronunciation of "那" and I didn't know the first character at all but my IME did)

I recognize the date of this thought as being after your husband died. (I also recognize it as from before I was born, but that isn't important)

You know the song, 'Bad Apple'? It has a cool animation, with a history that I don't really know where someone requested a sequence of images and someone did it really well. It might even be described on Nicovideo's dictionary, though the videos are no longer accessible outside of Japan. All about black and white; whether the singer is black or white, and whether other things are black or white.

If people don't act happy, or don't pretend to be happy when they might not be, then maybe people will act more 'evil'. It shouldn't surprise you if I say that I think this is not important: whether people act good or evil does not have anything to do with whether the 'hidden problem' is fixed. Like I said in 2009, without fully understanding what I meant but just guessing: "change is necessary". If everyone acted 'mostly good', then people might think this is the best possible, and nothing would get fixed.

Whether people act good or bad, there will be people who want to fix problems that they see. Like, the analogy is ... well, maybe the best analogy would be earthquakes—

in fact, I was able to recover this from my closed tabs, a page that I opened ~20 hours ago:

https://www.bilibili.com/video/BV1Lw411g7o6/

日本地震后，土壤“液化”滋滋冒水，这情况出现有特殊条件

"Following the earthquake in Japan, soil liquefied and began to ooze water; this phenomenon occurred under specific conditions."

I obviously did not try to watch this video as I don't know Chinese, I just translated the title to understand what it was about.

and

[4.57M views, 22 Jun 2025]Why Are Beach Holes So Deadly? - YouTube 

so, change in general gives opportunity; and when things happen that people don't like, it can motivate them to try to change things, leading to a greater rate of change than when people are happy and content. ("Anle")

Regarding this idea, it's hard to speculate whether it wouldn't be used in other conditions when it hasn't been used in these conditions, but I can still try: right now it seems like it should be possible for things to be better, because we have very rich and very poor, and we also have 'democracy', where many poor people can forcibly take money from the rich, or at least lets people think that rich people don't control everything. If everyone was poor, who would think that things could easily change within just a few years?

This is a different condition than "people thinking that others are well-intentioned". Order can arise out of chaos, but order cannot always transform itself into a different type of order.

Not really important. I would just say, "I respect people who think this way."

And suicide? I had been slowly watching episodes from Korean drama Tomorrow (2022) when I lost access to Netflix because my brother, who paid for the subscription used by several family members, was upset about the price increase or crackdown on sharing. I also remember that in the drama Tiger and Dragon, the character Megumi accidentally gets in a van with a bunch of people who intend to kill themselves, similarly to the van at the start of Tomorrow.

Obviously, if I had killed myself in 2009 as I said I would when Mei did not reply to me, I would not have thought of this idea. I don't see that as an argument for people acting happy, as with your poem or the Imagine Peace Tower. There are 8 billion other people who could have thought of this idea.

My open tabs at this moment:

1) DJ Men Enjoy Car Audio Show with Coyote Dancers 2014 File 08a - YouTube

I shared this idea with the person who uploaded this video, 13 or 14 years ago, when YouTube had private messaging capabilities. He said it was interesting. There is one video from ~2009 in which he is visible, filmed by another person, as I was able to conclude by comparing it to the video he had uploaded of the same moment. It would appear it's one of these three videos:

Pattaya Hottest Coyote Dancer[Motor Show 2010, same dancer 'Pattaya Countdown 2010 Car Audio Coyote Show 11'] [tq1wqX_ARv0].webm

Pattaya Coyote Dancers[Motor Show 2010 Poker Face, matches 'Pattaya Countdown 2010 Car Audio Coyote Show 13' -144s] [pllCA04_TkI].webm

Pattaya Coyote Dancer[Motor Show 2010 You Spin Me Round, matches 'Pattaya Countdown 2010 Car Audio Coyote Show 11' +10s] [Aph7HmQZ8oo].webm

2) https://www.iwara.tv/profile/luciferccc/videos

I realized that there is a cultural difference here. These videos, which are probably illegal in China, were made by a Chinese person, presumably using data made by another person but likely shared within Chinese communities (therefore, suggesting the data represents attitudes held by many Chinese people).

In a lot of videos by Japanese or English-speaking users, R18 videos featuring males and females have the males taking an active role. In many of these videos, the male is completely passive, even though the motion data includes the body of the male moving due to applied forces.

The explanation, presumably, is that the activities portrayed are bad: in China, it's seen as better if the male is not seen as responsible for the bad activity, while in Japan and the US the explanation of the male being responsible is seen as more acceptable.

(See also, the story on ChinaSMACK or something, which is now offline, where a female Chinese person in a hotel jumped out of a window to kill herself after she realized she had been r***d, from 2010 or 2011.)

Many people think, "everyone is bad, and people who pretend not to be bad are just pretending." What if some people are not bad?

As a counterpoint, I have become aware that an adult website featuring Japanese actresses, but ostensibly managed in a different country, has had a significant audience from China: the website whose theme song is featured in this video.

In the comments for a different video specifically for that song, I read a story by a Chinese male about how his dad wanted a ringtone for his phone, and the male set it to that song, with the song supposedly being recognized — but not commented on — by various other people throughout the day.

3) about:config

4) https://nitter.net/___yaara

5) https://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=完美世界

6) https://nitter.net/yokoono/

7) Why the UN hates Anime - YouTube

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I would also like to say, that today I thought of this,

poll: how offensive is the sentence, "I'm not a poor"?
- no more offensive than "I'm not poor"

The difficulty in concluding that someone is stupid

A post for one reason. While I was reading https://paulkrugman.substack.com/p/the-plutocrats-who-cried-commie, I had a thought which felt significant, and after closing the page, I remembered the thought but had no one to say it to.

Now, New York isn’t such a great place to live if you aren’t very affluent. Why? The problem isn’t crime, which is historically low. Nor is it the large number of immigrants, who clearly make the city better in many ways. No, it’s all about affordability, especially the cost of housing.

My thought was about the role that housing has in inequality. I think I pointed out in 2012 that housing costs are sensitive to inequality because it's like a bunch of tiny monopolies on the housing in a particular location (isn't there a saying that the most important things in real estate are location, location, location?). So: I have spent probably 80%+ 70%+ of my lifetime income on housing. Most of the money I earned was from the military, with about $30k savings when I left. My housing costs were around $500 per month; my food costs were less than $150 per month (I remember emailing my friend saying that my costs were about what a middle-income family in China spent); my phone bill was probably $5 per month; and my Internet costs were around $70 per month, lower at the start. (I continued to pay this Internet bill while I was living outside, due to the difficulty of cancelling my contract.) This lasted me two and a half years (I guess a significant amount was spent on hotels during the two weeks after I tried to meet Mei in 2010; $60 to $100 per night, or over $1k).

So, of course I was aware that poor people can be be poor because housing costs are high. But other people might not truly understand this, or know that I know it.

Paul Krugman's last post on his New York Times blog:

https://archive.nytimes.com/krugman.blogs.nytimes.com/2017/09/25/why-do-you-care-how-much-other-people-work-revisited/

It says,

to a first approximation, workers are paid their marginal product.

I would disagree: the basic assumption is that people are paid in rough proportion to the value they generate for a business, but the work that a business does may provide negative value to society (like a scam center), and describing it as a "first approximation" exaggerates the accuracy of this relationship. (A recent bookmark: What's the most creative employee misconduct you've seen? : r/work)

This means that if increased transfers induce some people to work less, it also causes them to earn less, so that the rest of society isn’t any worse off

I didn't understand this at first, but I guess "not worse off" is about the fact of people working less (with the title as context); it is not talking about the wealth transfers themselves.

aside from the taxes they pay, increased effort by the very rich to a first approximation makes no difference to everyone else, because the increase in output is fully captured by higher top incomes.

I think this shows that Paul Krugman did not have an understanding of why "rich people working less helps the poor" when he wrote this.

I did not include taxes in my simple model, but I note that in a recent paper I came across, Inequality’s drag on aggregate demand: The macroeconomic and fiscal effects of rising income shares of the rich | Economic Policy Institute, it said that the very rich save money at 60 times the rate of poor people.

by 2018, the top 1% were securing 16.4% of income (income before taxes and benefits), up from 8.9% in 1979. And they were saving 30.6% of their income, over 60 times as much as the bottom fifth of households.

In checking Paul Krugman's posts, I also saw he had promoted Jared Bernstein, on whose posts I commented in 2011 and 2012 and whom I also tried emailing again a year ago. I must comment on the fact that Jared Bernstein only has 1.3k followers on Chirp Club with his new account, and many of his posts have zero engagement. (I had to ask an 'AI' what "sup/dem" in one of his posts meant, and I am sure some other people who read it were also confused.)

In doing so, I saw https://econjared.substack.com/p/whos-spending-and-what-does-that which quotes that,

The highest-earning 10 percent of households are responsible for 22 percent of personal consumption. The top 20 percent of households spend 35 percent of the total. [...] The bottom 60 percent of earners represent 45 percent of consumption and hold only 15 percent of wealth.

Grouped this way, the top 10% only spend 3 times as much as the bottom 60% on average, which shows how the rich can save "60 times as much" as the poor.

So: this is with current taxes. One could think of taxes as enforced spending, but even with this enforced spending, the rich save a lot more, and spend a lower share of their income (naturally, or they would not be rich).

So I am justified in omitting taxes from the model and still asserting that it is relevant to the real world.

This was a lot of words to describe one thought: the fact that I spent most of my income on housing.

Robin Wells does have her own English Wikipedia page, but the last 50 edits go back to 2012 and it's in only 6 other languages, while Paul Krugman's article has 500 edits since 2019 and has 75 languages (not surprising when he has a Nobel prize). I think she is 'black' and native American, but her Wikipedia article does not really say and isn't that important. (Her article does say, "For The Occupy Handbook, Wells served as guest editor and contributed an original article.")

Looking at history, one can identify winners and losers. Those people might not have felt like they were winners at the time — who won when the Black Death struck Europe? — but just as history is written by the winners of wars, history is also written by the people who are alive when that history is written, and most of history is about things in the distant past.

So if you were to look at the world now, and compare it to the world 14 years ago when I first shared this idea, you could identify people or groups who have 'won on average'. Individual people might die, and groups might lose when looking at the chance of someone in the group dying, but there is also quality of life which could be worse for a group with a lower chance of dying, and a high death rate can be balanced by a high birth rate.

How can one prove that people in a group that has been winning for the past 14 years (whichever groups those are) is stupid? Basically, you can't. But I still think it; that people who didn't share this idea are stupid. There is not much more to say about this.

Oh, before I published this, though: remember when I said that Sherine was stupid? The reader might ask themselves how I was able to conclude this. But then, I called other people stupid as well, like everyone in my email contacts who didn't share the idea, which to my knowledge at the time was all of them. But I said that Sherine was stupid even though I knew it was possible she had shared the idea. (Sherine said a certain thing after I said this to her, which someone who was reading her Chirp Club account at the time would have known, although I don't know if my message that she was stupid was publicly visible.)

The previous post has 86 views, if anyone cares about how this number has changed.

Edit: well, I wanted to say something about Jamie Johnson, so I will, even in an edit. My name: I probably used the name Misaki when commenting on his posts, not Taemojitsu. I remember looking him up a few years later, like maybe 2013~2018, and saw that he had gone to some event with an Asian female whom he didn't really know that well.

I wouldn't really say that I had the goal of making any males who saw this name think that I was female. I may have had the goal of making females think that I was female. But I will say that I think it would have been nice if people had a positive evaluation of Asian females.

When I saw news articles in 2014 that copies of the book about Anne Frank in Japanese libraries had been damaged by someone cutting them up, I thought it might have been the Japanese female that I sent some messages to on Chirp Club, who used the handle @TmkWarpaint, a reference to a band. It was almost certainly done by a Japanese person, not a foreigner. It seemed obvious that the message was that someone was opposed to secrecy and secret actions; Anne Frank (I never read the book about her) lived in secret for some time, illegally hiding from the authorities.

But other than that collection of incidents, which might have been done by someone who is female, and the events in Korea which have no incontrovertible connection to this idea such as the 'nut rage' incident, I do not see anything by anyone who is Asian and female that people would find praiseworthy. I had said to Mei that I thought she might be smarter than I was, but to my knowledge she has never said anything on the topic of this idea to anyone, including of course to me.

So there is nothing that would support my wish that people would see Asian females more favourably.

Second edit: I tried the automatic Google Search links feature, and one of the links it made was to "perceptions of Asian females", which gave a featured snippet of "In media, East Asian women may be stereotyped as exceptionally feminine and delicate "Lotus Blossoms", or as Dragon Ladies," which like all non-offensive stereotypes is just so funny. Like, the 'frail princess' tactic. Anyway. When I first moved to Seattle to live with my oldest sister in 2005, I remember she commented that on a certain street, one street away from her place of work, a murder had occurred within the previous year and this was her basis to recommend avoiding that street.

I was recently re-recommended [332K views, 12 Aug 2025]Inside America's Robbery Capital - YouTube, which now has 1m+ views, and checked it again to read the comments. Like, someone saying how they knew an ambulance driver who worked there, and how they had stopped asking that friend what they saw on the job. Or another person saying how they had stopped doing service calls to homes in a dangerous area. This is an extreme, but my sister had suggested she viewed even a single murder as unacceptable. So, I don't know what crime is like in New York now, but I still think of Kitty Genovese who died there in 1964. Some people can still enjoy life in the robbery capital of the US; others can enjoy life while there is a lower, but still significant rate of violent death. Others feel compelled to reduce the risk of crime even when it already seems low.

I don't know if my sister fits into the last category. She did email me the link around Nov or Dec 2012 about lowered work efficiency from long hours. And she did, in the last 10 years, buy me a box of Cheez-its when I moved back to California, after I had suggested in an email that a $2 or $3 box of Cheez-its was better than a $10 restaurant meal, and she bought me a tooth brush after I forgot mine when I went to Hawaii for my sister's wedding — showing an understanding of the fact that I was poor. And, more to the point, I don't know who else might fit into the category of viewing a murder rate that's 10 times the rate in Japan as unacceptable. (I just checked, and it would seem New York has a rate of ~15 times Japan.)