A post I made on my personal weblog, in December 2009. It was a like allegory: a very short story, which I can practically recreate from memory at much lower quality:
A village setting, before fossil-fuel-based technology, so 'medieval' or a typical fantasy setting.
Character 1 or characters, who are strangers, address Character 2, saying something like, "we have come to free your village from the dragon who has been terrorizing it."
Character 2 looks past them, at the peaceful village and fields.
In this analogy, I was Character 1, being upset at Mei, who was character 2, for things like her not talking to me.
I deleted this post at some point after, maybe within a few days, and I think also deleted some other posts that I don't remember. I don't think I deleted the one where I linked to an old post where someone talked about how they hated the word "blog" and implied that most writings in "blogs" were useless; but if no such post exists, then it's because I deleted it.
I wrote this post because by that point, it was possible that Mei knew about that weblog. One could imagine that after I wrote it, Mei could have read it and changed her interactions with me. Me deleting it followed from my conclusion that this had not happened. I don't know if she read it, before I deleted it, and so if she is alive and remembers my existence, this post about it might be the first she has heard of that post.
If I had left up this post, which appeared to be a fictional narrative with no conflict and no resolution, it could have been interpreted as a subtle critique of Mei. I think that, by this point, any possible negative consequences are now unavoidable, and I am, of course, to blame if not deleting this post would have avoided these consequences.
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