To Imane, pt 61

I don't know if I've described these events before, but I'm treating it as though I have not.

Was thinking about my passivity. My excuse being a lack of information, and no way to obtain it. "If I ask questions, I won't get answers." But do you have an excuse? If you asked a question, you would get an answer, right?

So I thought about the time when Kate asked me a question, and I didn't give an answer. It's 16 years ago and I can only conclude that her question was, "why don't you study in your room", and not "why do you study out here", because my response was "good idea" and to immediately pick up my computer and leave.

But I felt this was an acceptable action because the implied answer was what I had said when she had asked the same or a similar question before, almost a year earlier. I had said "the light is better", and also gestured towards the windows.

Facts: in my room, I studied on my bed. The window was to the right of the bed, looking from the center of the room, so daylight on the bed wasn't very good, especially when sitting close to the wall which reduced the visible area of the window. There was a desk next to the window, but for some reason I think I never used it, other than as a place to put a glass of water.

The second time Kate asked me this question, it was late at night, probably between 10 PM and 1 AM. I might be able to identify the exact time if I checked my chat logs, with sign-in times. The illumination from the indoor lights at that moment was, in fact, very bad, for reasons I don't remember. Maybe I didn't bother to turn on any more lights when I went there to study. I think the reason I started studying there at that moment might have been because Kate left the wireless router in her room off that day, which I interpreted as a signal that she didn't want me to be there, and I only went to study there after she turned it back on after she returned home, but I don't remember.

So: under what circumstances would the implied answer of "the light is better" not be a lie? Was that why I studied in that area, up to that point when I stopped, until the day she left due to other events etc. etc.?

So maybe I don't always answer questions, and maybe I lied about why I was studying there.

 

I thought I would say this and not worry too much about the consequences. If you don't share the idea, it means you don't care about whether everyone has a place to live.