To Imane, pt 50

Because of the occasional slight pain in my abdomen that makes me think I could have cancer and could die, and because of science, I was asking myself if I would change anything if there was a penalty for not sharing the idea within a certain time limit. "If I don't get people to use the idea within a month, or within three days, I will be tortured horribly until I die."

The answer that suggests that I am acting morally is that my behavior would not change, and that's the answer that I felt was true.

Then while waking up, and realizing that the reason songs with repetition often don't make me wake up is that I have to listen to the songs to wake up, and if I think they won't make me want to wake up then I just go back to sleep instead of paying attention to a song, so it's basically that I wake up if I think I'm going to wake up: this was songs like, 挂念-爽子 (from Stars world first achievement Alone in the Darkness), Jang Yoon Jung (장윤정) - Oh My (어머나) [ftRXG0qRqW0] (from Alexis priest PvP), Shaolin Soccer theme 少林足球主題曲 [ckgF2dNK1fc] (from Shaolin Soccer but used by Lamigo as a crowd song, like smPti8e7T6I 0QA4cvMyY80 1YwA-s72UW8 Z2tRcp2rshk zWySKQ49n74 FVNHIqYW5Do yXun7XvBsEY 6QXC26JmXog fpn0CzK3UH4 RIYmm420WYM), 残酷な天使のテーゼ Cruel Angel's Thesis - Takahashi Youko [xyVatKhd4s4], Bunny Style Panoma Dance Crew edit 183s, 126 BPM higher pitch[lq audio] [oHFOYLJwqYY]_ss331.142, and Eastern Car Audio Motor Show with Coyote Dancers File 04[2012.01.10 DJ Teen Pattaya - Coturo by Lika~Danza Kuduro] [uiXB4OcayDs].

People listen to songs to make themselves happy (usually). Unfortunately, this is not about a happy topic. While waking up, I asked myself, "well what if it was other people being affected, instead of me?"

It made me think of when a drug lord kidnapped the people on a bus, made some of them fight each other, and made the bus driver run over some people to kill them. He probably also shot someone who refused to fight other people.

Some people immediately understand why he did this. Maybe you do. I always try to explain people's behavior in terms of helping people, but this was a behavior that people would naturally describe as 'evil': it might even be worse than pretending to crucify a cat, as some Islamic State fighters made out that they had done, on social media. "It's hard to know how to help the world, so a lot of people end up helping parts of it they know." The drug lord could have just killed the people he kidnapped. Instead he made them kill each other. This showed, to the survivors if there were any, or to the drug organization members (his henchmen), that this was how people (in a certain culture) are: if threatened with being hurt or killed if they don't hurt someone else, they will hurt the other person.

People who believe that other people would not do this are more likely to be 'nice', operating according to disputed and unclear rules of 'morality', which might, for example, include deciding to work with the police, or thinking that the police are not corrupt and that because being a drug lord is illegal while being a police officer is not, that one more person choosing to be a police officer who fights against drug organizations is better for society than one more person choosing to work for a drug organization.

Or to put it less controversially, in terms of prisoner's dilemmas: people defecting by accident, and how much importance to put on 'justice' to punish defectors and how much they forgive due to the possibility of accidental defection. The people who fought each other to the death for the drug lord were publicly showing a 'defection' choice (not an accidental defection) in a prisoner's dilemma.

Maybe people would have used the idea if I tried to hurt Sherine. I called her stupid, but I didn't really completely stop paying attention to her. If she stopped liking me, I think that would have been a good outcome, because no one who is of an age where they have started liking other people wants to go 13 years without being in a relationship, but I didn't do anything that, if Sherine was smart, she would have interpreted as me trying to make her not like me.

But I was thinking, the situation is different if an intelligent entity did not cause the situation of, 'would you hurt another person to benefit either yourself or someone else?'

In a minor way, this can be seen every time someone drives a car. This is an action that hurts other people, but unless you're religious, you don't think that any intelligent entity set up the situation where hurting other people gives a benefit to you or someone else.